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I'm secretly waiting for that perfect kiss...
I'm still young and I have plenty of time to find it but I'm starting to get a strange feeling as it's not going to come... I spend too much time pushing people away and maybe it's because I don't really want them but who knows.... I'm not even sure if I want it or not...
I think I want someone there to love me but not someone that will hold me down unless I want them to... If someone asked me to stay I think I'd leave even if I didn't want to, I need to be able to make my own decision without knowing what they want. I think I'd have a better chance of staying if they never knew I had a decision to make in the first place....
Oh I decided to go to Dallas for 6 months before I move to Alabama, hopefully everything goes well. I want to take some cooking classes and probably sign back up for some college courses to go towards an education major. I've told my parents I don't want to actually graduate or start a real teaching career until I'm in my late 20s. So while I have the free spirit to go... I'm going, going, gone!
Kelli's wedding is September 25, 2009... I told her I'd stand for her. I'm excited but hey I'm losing my bff... she'll be married to the guy who thinks I'm a bad influence. (They've been together for over 7 years and I'm sure they'll do great together but I just don't know if they will last forever. I love them both so I wish them both forever happiness!) It's all good, we'll still get crazy every once in a while.
I've stopped drinking so much, which I don't know if that's a good thing or not... 21 is less than a year away and so far the year isn't go by half as slow as I thought it would. I can't believe I'm going to make it to 21... I really have turned my life around and I'm going in the right direction even though I'm not sure what path to take.
I haven't had sex since December I think... crazy for me since I couldn't go a whole week without getting some type of interaction.
St Patties Day is coming soon... I'll be working again this year so it will probably be boring. Just a few drinks... can't enjoy the evening too much since I have to deal with so many drunk guys coming into the hotel. Maybe Sean will still be in the hotel and will come visit me, depending on how drunk he gets...
Karmel's birthday is coming soon as well... I'm throwing him a small party. March 14th is his b-day but I don't think the party will be until the week or so afterward because that's during Spring Break and most of my friends with pups are out of town. I'm exciting, I need to get that set up soonish.
I'm out, livejournal world have a great day!
I'm still young and I have plenty of time to find it but I'm starting to get a strange feeling as it's not going to come... I spend too much time pushing people away and maybe it's because I don't really want them but who knows.... I'm not even sure if I want it or not...
I think I want someone there to love me but not someone that will hold me down unless I want them to... If someone asked me to stay I think I'd leave even if I didn't want to, I need to be able to make my own decision without knowing what they want. I think I'd have a better chance of staying if they never knew I had a decision to make in the first place....
Oh I decided to go to Dallas for 6 months before I move to Alabama, hopefully everything goes well. I want to take some cooking classes and probably sign back up for some college courses to go towards an education major. I've told my parents I don't want to actually graduate or start a real teaching career until I'm in my late 20s. So while I have the free spirit to go... I'm going, going, gone!
Kelli's wedding is September 25, 2009... I told her I'd stand for her. I'm excited but hey I'm losing my bff... she'll be married to the guy who thinks I'm a bad influence. (They've been together for over 7 years and I'm sure they'll do great together but I just don't know if they will last forever. I love them both so I wish them both forever happiness!) It's all good, we'll still get crazy every once in a while.
I've stopped drinking so much, which I don't know if that's a good thing or not... 21 is less than a year away and so far the year isn't go by half as slow as I thought it would. I can't believe I'm going to make it to 21... I really have turned my life around and I'm going in the right direction even though I'm not sure what path to take.
I haven't had sex since December I think... crazy for me since I couldn't go a whole week without getting some type of interaction.
St Patties Day is coming soon... I'll be working again this year so it will probably be boring. Just a few drinks... can't enjoy the evening too much since I have to deal with so many drunk guys coming into the hotel. Maybe Sean will still be in the hotel and will come visit me, depending on how drunk he gets...
Karmel's birthday is coming soon as well... I'm throwing him a small party. March 14th is his b-day but I don't think the party will be until the week or so afterward because that's during Spring Break and most of my friends with pups are out of town. I'm exciting, I need to get that set up soonish.
I'm out, livejournal world have a great day!