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Today was my first day of college... I can't believe I have grown up this fast. I miss being in high school already but I know this will be an amazing experience...
I miss Montana really bad... I'm trying really hard to trust him, it's just so hard for me... he says he trust me but I don't really trust myself... I hate being drunk and wanting to have sex- it's really hard to say no here. I don't trust guys at all... Montana is just like every other guy.
I love him to death but being here just makes things so much harder on me... he doesn't seem to give a fuck about the fact that I left and that hurts a little... it kind of makes me think that I would be better off without him... I want someone to hold me, I want a shoulder to cry on and he isn't here and he doesn't ever understand that I need someone! I want him but I don't think he really wants me.
John from Bed Bath and Beyond (I miss working there) was up here last week and we went out Thursday night and we ended up at O'Bannon's it's an Irish Pub. I liked it a lot, I ended up taking him to his hotel b/c he was really drunk then I ended up walking home. I can't believe that my first beer in college station came from John of all people... kind of creepy but a lot of fun. I also bought a shirt while I was there... woohoo.
Today is Montana's birthday!! 23 years old now... it's so scary how fast people grow up... I met him when he was still 21.
Cheers to the days of college life...
I miss Montana really bad... I'm trying really hard to trust him, it's just so hard for me... he says he trust me but I don't really trust myself... I hate being drunk and wanting to have sex- it's really hard to say no here. I don't trust guys at all... Montana is just like every other guy.
I love him to death but being here just makes things so much harder on me... he doesn't seem to give a fuck about the fact that I left and that hurts a little... it kind of makes me think that I would be better off without him... I want someone to hold me, I want a shoulder to cry on and he isn't here and he doesn't ever understand that I need someone! I want him but I don't think he really wants me.
John from Bed Bath and Beyond (I miss working there) was up here last week and we went out Thursday night and we ended up at O'Bannon's it's an Irish Pub. I liked it a lot, I ended up taking him to his hotel b/c he was really drunk then I ended up walking home. I can't believe that my first beer in college station came from John of all people... kind of creepy but a lot of fun. I also bought a shirt while I was there... woohoo.
Today is Montana's birthday!! 23 years old now... it's so scary how fast people grow up... I met him when he was still 21.
Cheers to the days of college life...