i can never find the words, words, words...

[la_hereicome]

soo

so far my 08 resolution is not going so hot

i'm just so fickle...

tonight my mother told me that i need a real job so i can have a 'normal life'...whatever that means

there is no such thing as a normal life...100 years ago wearing a corset was normal...and now the only people that i know who wear corsets are the kind that go see 'rocky horror' on saturday nights...something my mother does not consider 'normal'

i need to change...i know...it's just tres difficult
i just want to be a one person around some people and another person around other people, and i can never really be myself. it's quite a struggle.
really what i want/need is just to be someone that i like...and i don't really like myself all the time...but then again maybe i never will...who's to say

i am missing a lot of things from last year right now...note to self: get over it

i had a really nice talk with mike tonight...he is good to talk to/listen to me babble

i don't know about this whole acting thing...i just feel so empty and talentless sometimes

da da da da dum

deuces