Day 003 || Total Eclipse of the Heart
Who: dualstance, ultimarecipe and endtome
What: A little heart to heart.
Where: Station of Serenity
When: TIME HAS NO MEANING For the duration of their deaths from Sora's own, in day five.
Warnings: tl;dr? Idk this is Disney.
( Seems that I have been held, in some dreaming state- )
What: A little heart to heart.
Where: Station of Serenity
When: TIME HAS NO MEANING For the duration of their deaths from Sora's own, in day five.
Warnings: tl;dr? Idk this is Disney.
( Seems that I have been held, in some dreaming state- )
Put an end to you?
Sora can't believe what he's hearing. His mind rewind, replays, like a dusty old cassette, scratched and coated with noise in places. the moments on meeting Ven, the moments during fighting, when he found out he died, not through the network but through a stab of pain in his own chest, one he couldn't even try to get up by himself afterwards, though Roxas had added to that as well--and finally, fighting. fighting blind, to try and be everyone's hope. to try and keep everyone together.
drip.
for Ven. for Roxas. he was trying to keep everyone together for both of them! he didn't want to go back without both of them, clasping their hands together. he
he didn't--
he didn't feel whole without them.
and this--this was just wrong! there was no way they were destroying Ven just because of Vanitas, oh, he'd give that guy a piece of his mind--
no, no, this couldn't be happening.
this isn't happening.
this is not possible.
drip.
there was something hot streaking down his face. Sora blinked hard as more tears came and he just vehemently shook his head for his answer, head bowed, eyes firmly shut and shoulders tensed upward.
no, he'd never do that! and he wouldn't let Roxas do it, either! ]
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[He feels the wetness at the corner of his eye, feels it slide down his cheek. But he can't bring himself to wipe it away, not when he knows he's not crying for his own pain. He's crying for Roxas. Crying with Sora.]
[And even now, when his heart is completely sunk, when his shoulders feel like lead and his whole body is utterly, assuredly numb-]
[He smiles, just for them. Because they need him to.]
Roxas, it's okay. Just listen to me. Just for a minute. [It may be difficult to keep his expression happy, but he does know he's at peace with what he's asking for, knows it's right for so many reasons.]
It's not fair... to keep existing when it just puts all of you in danger. Terra, Aqua- Axel and Xion too. What about Riku and Kairi?
I don't want to keep running, or have people protect me from this. I don't want Vanitas to have to live like that, either, always thinking about-- [He shakes his head.]
This is best for everyone.
Please.
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So badly does Roxas want to shout out the thoughts racing through his mind, wishing that Ventus could just hear them so that he doesn't have to. Everything is a jumbled mess, thoughts tangling together to form a ball of incoherency that the other probably wouldn't have been able to interpret even if his thoughts could be projected to him. But the urge is there and the only outlet he can use to vent it out is the further tightening of his fists.
He understands what Ventus is saying, really he does, but that doesn't mean he has to like it.
To wipe out an existence for the sake of others living, for the sake of himself, and to just keep others happy. Doesn't Ventus realize that no one's going to be happy with that sort of decision? That no matter what, no one would be able to put something like this behind them should it happen, that regardless of people saying they understand when given the reasons still won't understand why it had to happened.
Roxas doesn't understand the feeling of wanting to give up his own life, his own existence for someone else, not even for Xion and Axel. All he's known is his own and he's come to keep that knowledge close to him, never letting it out of his grasp. His existence is everything, the proof that he's lived and not just a shell of his Somebody. And to hear that Ventus would just throw away his own existence makes him angry, the urge to just shake the blond out of this thought process growing.
Maybe it sounds a little selfish, wanting to keep his own life even if it causes trouble for others, but. Who doesn't deserve the chance to be able to live in the light, to know that you matter. Despite the things he's caused, even Vanitas--
He shakes his head, still firm in his resolve. ]
Even if all you said is true, no one's going to think that this is for the best. [ Least of all, me.
His gaze turns to Sora, seeing the tears his Other-- no, his brother is letting out. The ice running through him doesn't allow for any tears, not yet at least. All he feels is the cold and the ache in his chest that won't lift, not with the other still thinking about ending his life. ]
None of us care how much we'll be put into danger, we can handle something like that. But Ven, think about it. [ Roxas looks at him, pleading with him to understand how he sees it. ] How do you think me and Sora-- how are any of us gonna handle you being gone forever?
[ To diminish one light would diminish them all. ]
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[ and for Sora, that's final. he finally manages to lift a hand to let his arm scrub against his face, trying to wipe away the tears.
he couldn't just sit here and cry silently, just because it hurt that much. he had to--he had to say something more. ]
I saw what happened when you were gone and Aqua and Terra was on their own. They--they were really sad. You're too important to do this to!
We care about you. We're your friends... maybe more than that, I dunno. Roxas is right. None of us want you gone. When people share a destiny, you fight through everything together. That's what we're gonna do, okay? We're not gonna let you go through this on your own.
All of us, we're all in this together.
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[If resolution was named Sora. If anything, Sora's desperation shines through all the more. Ventus can feel it, the sadness and the fear and please, don't go away. His eyes sting, hands going up to rub at them furiously. He's not going to cry again. He won't start off another chain reaction.]
Guys... it's not that easy. You all...[He swallows.] You could all get hurt. Someone could die.
I can't live like that, worrying about you guys, who I'll lose just by being there. What could happen just for that- that thing.
[He looks back to the ground, biting his lip. All this time, all these travels, and only now has he really come across what he'd been searching for all along. More than a resolution, but a connection.]
I spent so much time trying to make friends.
I can't lose anyone now. Not for me.
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[ How long has he had to worry about the blond, endless nights just staying awake when he doesn't know how Ventus is doing? That time they separated from each other, there hasn't been a single moment when he hasn't worried and wondered if he's okay. Knowing that he could be alone just makes it all worse.
This feeling, this single emotion made so strong just because of how close he's gotten to not only Ventus but Sora as well. He... cares when he hadn't really before, not even with his memories from the simulated town, and no doubt it's thanks to these two right here. And though it's overwhelming half the time, he's grateful for being able to feel like a normal person, to be able to feel how these two are so that he kind of knows what they're going through. It's not to a very deep extent because he doesn't have a heart but. Better a little than not at all.
Roxas takes a step towards Ventus, his eyes softening and his voice losing the edge it had taken. ]
We're in this together, aren't we? We said we'd figure things out. [ And I can't do that without you here.
There's an echo of something in his chest as he thinks about the possibility of Ventus being gone. A hollowness that he's never felt before, not even from his time with the Organization because there seems to always be something there. He's never been able to figure it out before, can't figure it out now but. If the blond never comes back, he knows that whatever it is in his chest will be gone to. ]
You're not gonna lose us and. No matter what you say, we're not gonna lose you either.
[ That connection of not just being friends but something much deeper than that, he's not going to sever it, not from Ventus or Sora or anybody. ]
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[ Sora steps forwards with Roxas, grasping Ven's hand and then Roxas'. he gives both of them a smile, but settles on Ven, looking at him in earnest. ]
We'll figure everything out, but three heads are better than two. And we need you, Ven.
You're part of us. And we're part of you. That means we're gonna fight by your side, whatever you go through!
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