Jan 21, 2010 02:20
I think that someday in ten or fifteen years, you and I will be great friends. Maybe even best friends, the way that only sisters are supposed to be, where we can talk and understand one another and have empathy for each other. But clearly now is not that time.
We will always be sisters, but that doesn't mean we can always be friends. We are too different, so much that we can't understand where the other person is coming from; so much that we can't convey our ideas, our thoughts clearly or without the other person's perception getting in the way due to how differently we view the world at this time.
This is hard to state, but I think if you weren't my sister, you and I would not likely be friends. I don't say this to hurt you, but it's true. I don't enjoy the same social life you do or work where you work. We don't really like the same things, and we hardly agree on anything. We don't have enough in common to relate to one another at this point in time, and that's why we have such a hard time having a decent relationship right now.
I don't think it will always be this way, I think it's just right now. I think someday you and I will be so close it's unbelievable, but I think it's been proved that a bloodline isn't enough to make us friends now, regardless of the importance of our biological relationship, simply because you and I are just in different points in life right now.
However, even if we weren't related, I would still be impressed by how dedicated you are to tele-productions, how hard working you are to keep up with the demand of the restaurant business and how much more athletic you will always be than me.
Please don't take this as an insult, but I think I have picked on you in the past because I feel like you have so much potential that you aren't using, artistically, intellectually, physically, and this is why I am harsh with you; because I hold you to such a high standard. But this is unfair, since your life is not mine to live, and being that we are different, you have your own set of standards to ensure your own happiness, so I will stop.
This is all that I think I need to say right now, and hopefully more productively than ranting through childish texts.
I love you, which is more important than being your friend. We'll connect better in the future, but at least remember that until then.