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wow guys its been like forever and a day since i updated. i have been real busy w/ work. and my mind has been elsewhere lately. so yeah sorry bout that. no one reads this anyways. but yeah
life has been goin alright. my heart i think cant take much more of guy crap they try to pull over your eyes. do they think im that stupid? this is the SECOND time a guy has hurt me by goin BEHIND my back w/ a girl. and lyin straight to my face. even tho im not stupid and i know already that they are lying. i get proof real fast. but i hold it in hoping JUST hoping MAYBE they are tellin the truth even tho i have the proof. because im scared of being hurt and losing him.
i love him so much w/ all my heart. and i dont know what i do if he ends up tellin me everything was true (even tho i already do know i wanna put that in the back of my head so i wont think about it and go on like nothing is wrong) i would be so heart broken. because he said he only loves me. so im gonna believe him and not what i read until he tells me to my face. but yeah.
me and my dad got in a HUGE fight on saturday. i wont go into detail what was said. but it hurt real bad. then yesterday he tried to "buy" my love back by wanting to take me to the mall. he should know already that i do love him and he doesnt need to buy me anything to make me love him. blah. parents i tell ya lol.
i have been real real busy w/ work lately. but now that should all stop. but the past few weeks have been so hard on me. i wanted to put my 2 weeks notice in. and i almost did last thursday. but i talked myself out hoping things would get better. and they have. so its all good for now. im giving myself more time to look for another job before i quit so yeah. thats my life story for today. later kids
Melissa