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[la_belle_amour]

Its all sort of a blur
A kiss
With my love

So gentle to me
To soft

Why do I get this way
Like everything is wrong
Like everything is not in place
Like nothing is in place
What am I waiting for
What am I afraid of
Of falling in love
A love not returned
If you don’t love you cant get hurt right
I once loved you
And that was a miss-hap
It wasn’t bad
I just told myself I wouldn’t
Told myself never again
A mindset
What is this confusion
For right now the confusion between me an your actions are understood
For now
But will it turn like before
I cant tell
I cant read you
Your so three sided

I didn’t know which to love
Your three different people
Not now
But you are
Still
Just in a matter of time
Again
Like before
What?
Love 1/3 of you
It is not possible
I cant love a portion of something
Cant love only part of you
I need the whole thing
I love the whole thing
Do you
Is this current love throughout the whole thing
It needs to be
For me
For me

Is it only me who sees it this way
Who is seeing it this way
Feeling it this way

Is it weird for you too?
Doesn’t seem like it
But you said
It not real
Its not how the world really works
Not how everyone else sees it
Its not the matrix you said

I think it is how it is
For me
For my world

Everyone has their own world
Its not just one
Yes were all connected
But tapping into anothers world
That’s the hard one
We know
This one world
But its not the only one
Is not the only one
Not for them
Not for you
Not for me
Not for us

What is it

-mallorypaige
may 26th 1:38am