i agree with what your saying..but at the same time in my situation its completely different. people assumed that i said shit at a party that i wasnt even present in the room for. to be honest if you really want to know..i was upstairs boning when i heard what was going on. i have no idea who said what n when..but all i know is that i am now being blamed and all the people who dont believe me are people who werent there or who have done the whole i heard this n that yadda yadda nonsense. i have distanced myself from everyone..some people whom i have nothing against..like you laura..i miss hanging out with you but at the same time i just feel invaded by everyone and i want to get away from everyone who doesnt know whats going on..to avoid more confusion and more drama. i have decided that if nobody believes me then fine- they cant be real friends then can they? and those who do believe me are the ones who know full well that i wouldnt do something like that..cuz i mean previous to this..when have i ever been DIRECTLY involved in shit disturbing? sure i dont like people and they dont like me..but i have never once bitched directly at someone or started shit to get back at people..it is unessecary to me and if people want to call me a hypocrit then fine..if they dont believe that i wasnt involved in the whole pam thing..then fine.. she obviously doesnt believe me but i dont care because she hasnt been a friend to me for a long time now and everyone knows that. anyway if this entry is directed at me..then theres your answer..if its not..then thats cool too cuz i still told my story once and for all. and the reason this bullshit keeps getting more and more ridiculous is because nobody will full out hear me out except my best friends and my boyfriend..who dont even need to hear me out since they were there...everyday i hear more and more twisted shit about me and it keeps getting more distorted and ridiculous as the days go on. ive lost "Friends" who i now realise could never have been true friends if they were to turn on someone of their own before asking the direct truth from the person. then they can call me a liar all they want..but untill someone asks..they have no right to go making up lies. im over it now though..i do not wish to start anything more with people..nor do i wish to have people even comment to this. what ive said is now done. if i offended you in my LJ posts then im sorry because i did not mean for any of them to be directed at you. and if you think because i ever wrote names of ppl i was friends with and if for some reason you werent there..its not because i had anything against you but because we may have drifted. who knows..i dont remember these posts but ive heard that you were offended..and i know how all this LJ shit always gets misinterpreted which is why i was thinking of deleting everyone and just keeping it to myself..because i still need to vent either way. phew. okay im done now. ill talk to you later dear and i hope things can work out. :) <3
anyway if this entry is directed at me..then theres your answer..if its not..then thats cool too cuz i still told my story once and for all.
and the reason this bullshit keeps getting more and more ridiculous is because nobody will full out hear me out except my best friends and my boyfriend..who dont even need to hear me out since they were there...everyday i hear more and more twisted shit about me and it keeps getting more distorted and ridiculous as the days go on. ive lost "Friends" who i now realise could never have been true friends if they were to turn on someone of their own before asking the direct truth from the person. then they can call me a liar all they want..but untill someone asks..they have no right to go making up lies.
im over it now though..i do not wish to start anything more with people..nor do i wish to have people even comment to this. what ive said is now done. if i offended you in my LJ posts then im sorry because i did not mean for any of them to be directed at you. and if you think because i ever wrote names of ppl i was friends with and if for some reason you werent there..its not because i had anything against you but because we may have drifted. who knows..i dont remember these posts but ive heard that you were offended..and i know how all this LJ shit always gets misinterpreted which is why i was thinking of deleting everyone and just keeping it to myself..because i still need to vent either way.
phew. okay im done now. ill talk to you later dear and i hope things can work out. :)
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