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I definitely miss Sammy beyond all reason. Allison is coming to pick me up soon. She's going to be busy getting ready to go to a barbeque..but I really need to get out of the house. Out of the house without my mother.
I swear I'm going to lose it in this apartment. I need to be out and with people. People who aren't over 30..
Last night I watched this really disturbing movie about aliens..and I just thought about Sammy the whole time and how much this movie would freak him out. Haha. I really want to like suggest this movie to him..but I'm not that mean.. okay maybe I am THAT mean.. but I love him so I won't do it.
I can't believe he's gone again. I won't be hearing his voice for the next three weeks. Uhh I thought not seeing him was bad.. now I can't even talk to him. Hopefully he'll write me a letter soon.
I had therapy today with Bonnie. She gave me a list of NA and AA meetings. I definitely think that I should start going again. I know I can't do this alone. I need to make some friends inside the rooms. I'm just nervous that no one will talk to me and I'll have no one to like sit with and just you know say hi to at the beginning of the meeting. I always had that at Summit Oaks. I knew a couple people there and I knew everyone there was friendly and I trusted them.
I'm just scared about opening up to new people. I'm just very scared.
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I swear I'm going to lose it in this apartment. I need to be out and with people. People who aren't over 30..
Last night I watched this really disturbing movie about aliens..and I just thought about Sammy the whole time and how much this movie would freak him out. Haha. I really want to like suggest this movie to him..but I'm not that mean.. okay maybe I am THAT mean.. but I love him so I won't do it.
I can't believe he's gone again. I won't be hearing his voice for the next three weeks. Uhh I thought not seeing him was bad.. now I can't even talk to him. Hopefully he'll write me a letter soon.
I had therapy today with Bonnie. She gave me a list of NA and AA meetings. I definitely think that I should start going again. I know I can't do this alone. I need to make some friends inside the rooms. I'm just nervous that no one will talk to me and I'll have no one to like sit with and just you know say hi to at the beginning of the meeting. I always had that at Summit Oaks. I knew a couple people there and I knew everyone there was friendly and I trusted them.
I'm just scared about opening up to new people. I'm just very scared.
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