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I can't sleep.
Becky is sleeping in my bed. oh baby...?
I was texting Sam Marshall today and he texted me back saying "leave me alone". That made me really sad.
I love him *as a friend* and it hurts when he says things like that.
Tomorrow (technically today) I have to go out to lunch with my Grandy. Oh joy! I'm going to be so fucking tired.
I've been smoking a lot of weed. I'm really fried right now. My thinking isn't too good. Magda left for Poland, that sucks. At least Becky and I got to see her yesteray, that was cool.
Zak has been working a lot lately and it makes me sad that I barely see him. Because he has summer school, work and a lot of appointments. But we made plans for tomorrow sometime after two. I really miss him. I made a list of things that I love about him. It had 38 things. He was extremely flattered and he responded by telling me that it was touching and that no one had ever made such a sweet gesture. He also said something along the lines of, "as if my ego isn't big enough." it was cute. I love him and his GINORMOUS ego. He's adorable.
Tomorrow when I go to lunch with my Grandy, I have to write down things that I want to say to my Dad. If you *whoever is reading this* didn't already know, my Dad went to rehab for the fourth time. I have to write down what I want to say to him when I go and visit him. I can tell you all right now. The things that I say aren't going to be what he wants to hear and I'm going to be extremely straightforward because I have so much anger towards him right now it's unbelievable.
Today I smoked with Becky and Annabelle. I have a lesbian crush on her, as Magda and Becky both did at some point. Maybe it's not a crush, I think I just like her, she's extremely chill. She seems like such an interesting and unique person and I want her as my friend. End story.
I saw Rhiannon today. I haven't noticed it but I realized today how skinny she has gotten. It scares me and I hope that it's not because of anything bad like being annorexic. Whatever, she's beautiful and I love her.
I'm not tired still but I'm going to try to sleep on the couch. Goodnight all.
<3 love to mah homiez.
Becky is sleeping in my bed. oh baby...?
I was texting Sam Marshall today and he texted me back saying "leave me alone". That made me really sad.
I love him *as a friend* and it hurts when he says things like that.
Tomorrow (technically today) I have to go out to lunch with my Grandy. Oh joy! I'm going to be so fucking tired.
I've been smoking a lot of weed. I'm really fried right now. My thinking isn't too good. Magda left for Poland, that sucks. At least Becky and I got to see her yesteray, that was cool.
Zak has been working a lot lately and it makes me sad that I barely see him. Because he has summer school, work and a lot of appointments. But we made plans for tomorrow sometime after two. I really miss him. I made a list of things that I love about him. It had 38 things. He was extremely flattered and he responded by telling me that it was touching and that no one had ever made such a sweet gesture. He also said something along the lines of, "as if my ego isn't big enough." it was cute. I love him and his GINORMOUS ego. He's adorable.
Tomorrow when I go to lunch with my Grandy, I have to write down things that I want to say to my Dad. If you *whoever is reading this* didn't already know, my Dad went to rehab for the fourth time. I have to write down what I want to say to him when I go and visit him. I can tell you all right now. The things that I say aren't going to be what he wants to hear and I'm going to be extremely straightforward because I have so much anger towards him right now it's unbelievable.
Today I smoked with Becky and Annabelle. I have a lesbian crush on her, as Magda and Becky both did at some point. Maybe it's not a crush, I think I just like her, she's extremely chill. She seems like such an interesting and unique person and I want her as my friend. End story.
I saw Rhiannon today. I haven't noticed it but I realized today how skinny she has gotten. It scares me and I hope that it's not because of anything bad like being annorexic. Whatever, she's beautiful and I love her.
I'm not tired still but I'm going to try to sleep on the couch. Goodnight all.
<3 love to mah homiez.