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So, seriously. I'm going crazy. Ok, not really...but everything's a blur. and i don't know where i just put my glasses. i'm turning into an old woman without a mind...that'd be senile--right? haha umm
anyway. it's the New Year. i capitalize because it's supposed to have some sort of importance. to me, it doesn't.
Why is it that the monumental things happen at the end of the year for me? my grandfather dies, suicide attempt number one, then number 2, i get broken up with, i get diagnosed with bipolar disorder. those are some of the major events of my life. i have too many to share---far too many. but seriously...why is it this way? it's as though some greater being KNOWS that, hey! it's the new year! that means you can start fresh. start anew! but...really. what is it? i wish i knew.
broke a nail today. then i went to barnes and noble
ok...pat brady is on the phone drunk with me right now...i need to go. i'll update again.
fucking FUCKING A.