Going Red
So Tuesday I'm going to go back to the guy who cut my hair and let him color it red. Thinking of streaking it and then using wax on my eyebrows *this kind of scares me after my last waxing episode* to bring out the arch more. Two more days to go. Need to start back exercising, like crunches and the sort. Been feeling a bit off, sad and depressed. I tend to stay such most of the time so it's not new. Just a few more things added to it, but it's almost a constant. There are times I am not feeling that way, times I'm truly happy or don't think about it, but in the end I come back to facing it. I do not have alot in the way of self confidence...what bit I had got shot down quick with the ex, then boosted again with the Zak, and slowly being pecked away at by others and events. As one person once pointed out if my confidence is so low why do I take so many pictures. Simple. There are times I feel pretty or get a shot that I think is good enough. Other times I have the reassurance such is nice enough to put up or send out. It's not a matter of vanity I take pictures. Vanity is me trying to keep my hair brushed...well not really that's a habit I took up that keeps me calm and sane, plus I like it brushed. I just spent some time going back in my blog to copy and paste over to LJ. I have one friend who reads on there that doesn't read elsewhere so they have no clue what is going on unless I post to it or I'm caught on IM and we talk.
Tired but can't sleep yet... seems I have something to say or hear and until I either get that satisfied or just reach the point of having to sleep I'm up. No I don't know what I'm waiting for, just feel I am. My weekend has been alright, nothing great to talk about really. Thought I would get to see a friend but they were a no show...again. Worked Saturday and realized Raymond isn't too bad. Leah shot him in the ear with a rubber band, not on purpose but was aiming for him. He didn't get after her but she's made him cry before and despite her height can be intimidating so I suppose he figures it's safer to look wounded and not say a thing. I've came to this realization that bothers me a bit in the sadness of it. If you have my yahoo ID then you may have seen it, at least starting tonight since I just put it up . Tomorrow is another day or running the clamps. 355.030 parts an hour they run. Fun stuff. I believe there are two more jobs on it so I should be finished maybe Tuesday or Wednesday. Worst case scenario they give me more jobs on it. Better than falling asleep in assembly I suppose.
Tired but can't sleep yet... seems I have something to say or hear and until I either get that satisfied or just reach the point of having to sleep I'm up. No I don't know what I'm waiting for, just feel I am. My weekend has been alright, nothing great to talk about really. Thought I would get to see a friend but they were a no show...again. Worked Saturday and realized Raymond isn't too bad. Leah shot him in the ear with a rubber band, not on purpose but was aiming for him. He didn't get after her but she's made him cry before and despite her height can be intimidating so I suppose he figures it's safer to look wounded and not say a thing. I've came to this realization that bothers me a bit in the sadness of it. If you have my yahoo ID then you may have seen it, at least starting tonight since I just put it up . Tomorrow is another day or running the clamps. 355.030 parts an hour they run. Fun stuff. I believe there are two more jobs on it so I should be finished maybe Tuesday or Wednesday. Worst case scenario they give me more jobs on it. Better than falling asleep in assembly I suppose.