fucking sick and tired
I'm fucking sick and tired of everyone's fucking bullshit. I'm sick of my fucking cousin getting away with everything and then having his fucking mom blame me for his disrespect. Even though its her fault cause she won't fucking discipline her fucking kid. I'm fucking sick and tired of getting yelled at cause I didn't do my chores because he didn't do his which prevented me from doing mine then getting shit for him not doing his. I'm fucking sick and tired of everyone whining and complaining to me for help and then fucking telling me they were better off before I fucking helped them. I'm sick and tired of everyone taking and taking and taking and not giving anything in return. I'm fucking done with everyone, everyone that says they'll never forget me then they get a new bf (after cheating on me) and then completely forgetting about me...no kitty im not talking about u I'm talking about the one person i trusted more then anyone in my life (besides becki) I told her things ive never told anyone and she's told me things too...and then she just tosses me out like a fucking piece of trash...YEA WELL FUCK U...I'm sick and fucking tired of it. When I was ready to pack it in and move away from this shit hole town I was dragged rite fucking back, not by my aunt no...I was dragged back by my feelings for someone very special to me, and no matter how manytimes i wanted to hurt myself, and no matter how many times i wanted to just leave this place and die, she was always there for me, and I always thot I was there for her too turns out im only there for the lil things, which hey is fine by me there easy to fix, but im glad u dont need me enuff to help with anything big anymore...ive kinda taken the back seat to everything...I've gone from being a best friend to being a friend to being nuthing pretty much but oh well who cares its only will anyways he's not worth anything, he doesnt cry at nite (yes he does) he doesnt feel pain (yes he does) he doesnt get hurt when ppl block him for a misunderstanding (yes I do) nooo hes just will that loveable huggable guy thats always there to help, and I kno i have said on way to many occasions that im not fucking helping anyone anymore...but I fucking care to fucking much to stop helping...so i'm not gonna say im gonna stop...im just gonna ask everyone to stay the fuck away from me with ur fucking problems plz and fucking thank you...I dont need ur fucking problems to fix i have plenty of my own I'm probably in some need of some serious therapy and i kno im not all fucking there in the head anymore and I kno i have been suffering from depression for years but ive hidden all behind my rotten smile, my mask of happiness. well no fucking more I cant fucking stand any of this shit anymore and I shudn't have to. all of you from now on fucking help urselves im done with this bullshit I'm fucking serious