Is there a future?
As the days come closer to what I have known for the past short two years, my time has come to an end at Kutztown. I am leaving one of the best places that I had the opportunity to experience. Between the past two months I have cried harder then I ever thought was imagingable. The fact that I did not give my all in keeping my grades up and decided that partying was a better opportunity for me to do and live a life that I thought should be tried out. I have learned valuable lessons that one day I hope to pass to my children when that day comes. It made me realize that you can have the best friends ever that are so different from the person you are that it just makes sense. You meet new people that may come into your life then you never expected to talk to, let alone be that person you run to when you know what you're doing is wrong but listen. Knowing that they all have a special place in my heart even when I tried to push a lot of them away, they were still there to listen to my explanations.
I have accepted the consequences that I have to face by moving back home and going to school there but I have figured it gives me a new opportunity to start over again. It will be a time where I can work and reflect on what I would really like to do in my life. You only live once so why not live a life that makes you happy? I have goals that I want to accomplish and I think the only way I can do that is get everything straightened out that needs to be straightened out. So, what am I going to do when it's all over in 4 days? Work my ass off, figure things out for school, figure out what truly makes me happy. Do I want to be that teacher I thought I wanted to do for what seems like years? Do I want to do a job that helps out animals or people? I do not know but I hope to find out soon. Or do I want to take off and travel all around the world? Which is something I want to do soon. Or even live in a different country to experience a new way of living life, especially enjoying a whole new culture.
But you know what at this point I have a whole summer filled of figuring it out. I plan on keeping in touch with a majority of my friends and sisters from school. It's going to be a change but it's a change I'm willing to take. Because, I feel that it will make my life better once I figure things out.
I have accepted the consequences that I have to face by moving back home and going to school there but I have figured it gives me a new opportunity to start over again. It will be a time where I can work and reflect on what I would really like to do in my life. You only live once so why not live a life that makes you happy? I have goals that I want to accomplish and I think the only way I can do that is get everything straightened out that needs to be straightened out. So, what am I going to do when it's all over in 4 days? Work my ass off, figure things out for school, figure out what truly makes me happy. Do I want to be that teacher I thought I wanted to do for what seems like years? Do I want to do a job that helps out animals or people? I do not know but I hope to find out soon. Or do I want to take off and travel all around the world? Which is something I want to do soon. Or even live in a different country to experience a new way of living life, especially enjoying a whole new culture.
But you know what at this point I have a whole summer filled of figuring it out. I plan on keeping in touch with a majority of my friends and sisters from school. It's going to be a change but it's a change I'm willing to take. Because, I feel that it will make my life better once I figure things out.