yeaaah
I went to morehead last night
on a whim
I called megan.
I needed to talk to her.
she didnt answer so I went anyways.
So I'm just getting into morehead, and I stop at a redlight (I'm going to get cigarettes)
and guess who is beside me!
MARKS VAN
with mark, caleb, megan, and nic
so I screamed WHAT?!?!?!
and rolled down the window
told him I'd follow him, pulled a U-ey
haha
and followed them to nics
they couldnt believe it either!
we were freaked out.
I totally typed all of this like 5 minutes ago geeeez
so we hung out and I played a Wii
That was insane.
then they were like
before you came we were scroungin around for money for a bag
and I said heres 5 bucks
Caleb looked in his car. and pulled out this massive change tray.
We went to coinstar and he ended up having 45 dollars.
Pure Ownage.
I hopped back in the van and we were off
we picked clay up
and the inevitable scott.
whom everyone dislikes.
intensely.
but megan and I got to talk
jammed in the back
she told me she was attracted to nic!
how insane!
Up until now it had been caleb all the way.
so I talked to her about Kaiti
And I came to realizations
I'm incredibly in love with Kaiti.
Kaiti is more than the highest likely event my 'One'
Shes more than perfect.
and so are we.
even our bad moments arent bad. they are just further proof of a point.
she makes me so satisfied happy
like a perfect meal feeling that never goes away haha
this is probably freaking you out Kaiti
haha sorry
this is just bursting from me.
I feel like exploding while inhaling
I miss you so bad right now
Everything seems to remind me of you
I just think of your reactions
Kaiti would understand in the way that I do.
You complete me, kid.
I love you.
Completely.
Im sorry I've been a spaz.
dont freak out about all of this ignore it if you'd like
I just had to type it
because I'm pretty sure I can't articulate something like this. :(
except in writing
which is horrible
but understandable.
It just is.
We just are.
we rode to this insane up in a holler' place.
and ended up on the sweet side of a green shade.
it was time to go back to nics, we were off.
When we got there. everyone decided that I should roll a tulip joint
I did of course
pretty sure marks face says it all
I blew some smoke tricks and people thought that was neat
I made this ring appear from an umph and some tendrils
everyone wigged out
hahaha
it was decided that I had to play the first person shooter on the wii.
Gadamn.
Figuring out a new game system, especially one that reads your movement is damn. near. impossible. when you are baked.
But yeah I retyped almost all of this
how insane.
Cross your fingers for my bass
in the meantime think of this:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RdY-KAmj5fU jaco
will, will it.
I ended up driving back this morning and I wish I could sleep
but all I can think of is telling Kaiti all of this.
I just want to hear her voice.
See her reactions
Every moment that I'm with you, makes me completely satisfied happy.
I made the best breakfast this morning
Bacon sandwhich
Bacon
Bean Cakes
Dr pepper
Cigarette dessert.
Lovely
I must see you kaiti.
very soon like.
she had been going after caleb before
and I talked to her about Kaiti
Came to 3 realizations
I dont even care I'm just going to type them,
okay
I am desperately. in love with kaiti.
I love every single part of her
Kaiti is probably my 'One'
That scares the hell out of me.
pretty much.
but in a subdued, hey thats actually kind of perfect
and then I looked back and realized that every moment that I'm with Kaiti is perfect.
This is probably freakin Kaiti out
I havent even told her about any of this
The only really scary thing is thinking of Clair and how lost I got in her world and how far away from anything resembling a relationship we got.
I mean come on.
I'm allowed that.
I think.
but its only a 1%-age type scare. its not really relevant, especially with Kaiti
I'm serious.
Everything melts and becomes these soothing waves of one-ness and right-ness
Writing this is probably the only way I can articulate any of this.
Which is sad, you know?
Blah
I miss her so bad right now.
I do all the time.
I think about her all the time.
Everything seems to scream a reaction from you
I think, Kaiti would know. Kaiti would know.
You are the only one that understands me.
Movies make me sad now-adays.
everything is comprised of the same basic plot or a slight variation of such.
That doesnt really mean anything except it makes it harder for me to appreciate the little beautiful things in life. Movies show a point of view.
Skews and allows an interchange.
So basically. I'm freaking Kaiti out.
and everyone else reading this is like
Wtf Mate ^^
Everything is so strange
yet so intrinsic
this lady.
wow
but yeah then I drove back
and Ive been up ever since.
but Kaiti act like you didnt read all of that stuff about you
and let me tell you in person
later today hopefully.
<3
Whatta large entry.
cross your fingers for my bass.
are you serious.
i just retyped all of this.
well hell im posting both of these