Just checking in
Wow, I haven't been here in forevers. I used to be so diligent. Religiously flipping through my flist. I can't believe how busy I got towards the end of last year x_________x
And things really don't seem to be slowing down as I thought they would. It just seems like I'm on the fast lane to adulthood. And I'm just ugggh...no. Not ready for that responsibilty - I'm still a kid at heart. A rather spoilt and pampered one I admit.
And damnit another rant. A cousin of mine is having her wedding at year's end and there a g\high possibility that I might end up the bridesmaid. So (ignoring my hearts urge to not set myself up for expectations) I'm setting ti\his as an actual milestone to exercise and get myself in a weight range that I'm actually happy about and not stare in the mirro and start cussing. Lols. Typical I know but still can't ignore the wheedling voice in my head taunting me that I'm fat. BUT THE EFFIN THING IS THAT I JUST CAN'T GET MYSELF ON THE DAMN THREADMILL. Oh Lord, save me and my fail-drive.
Oh wells, to my fat kid at heart I still love you and I still love those M&M's x.x
And things really don't seem to be slowing down as I thought they would. It just seems like I'm on the fast lane to adulthood. And I'm just ugggh...no. Not ready for that responsibilty - I'm still a kid at heart. A rather spoilt and pampered one I admit.
And damnit another rant. A cousin of mine is having her wedding at year's end and there a g\high possibility that I might end up the bridesmaid. So (ignoring my hearts urge to not set myself up for expectations) I'm setting ti\his as an actual milestone to exercise and get myself in a weight range that I'm actually happy about and not stare in the mirro and start cussing. Lols. Typical I know but still can't ignore the wheedling voice in my head taunting me that I'm fat. BUT THE EFFIN THING IS THAT I JUST CAN'T GET MYSELF ON THE DAMN THREADMILL. Oh Lord, save me and my fail-drive.
Oh wells, to my fat kid at heart I still love you and I still love those M&M's x.x