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Hey Folks.
Its me, Jess. Been a while, eh? I just feel the need to write.
Lately I've been kind of lost. Lost in my school work, drama at work and emotions beyond my control. Its been pretty frustrating, but nothing I can't handle.
Just turned the big 21. I know, its taken long enough! ha Naw, its just nice to have the choice to grab a beer if I need it, or pick up a bottle of wine on my way home from Bobs.
As for the emotional trouble... I just am lost as all hell. It keeps going back to that one feeling, you had that one time, way back when... and trying to find it again, exhausting. haha.
I used to live for the chase, never knowing whats going to happen, who you'll wake up to or what the hell you did last night. Good times.. but I'm over that now. I have just one more year until graduation and now is the time to think about that future of mine.
Super glad I didn't stay in SH and went to CMU. I have a bad feeling that I would still be attached at the hip and dow-eyed for that douche. I was some piece of work back then.
I think I was just not grown-up yet. I didn't know what I wanted or needed, so I attached myself to the first guy I had real feelings for. He just didn't recripate them, so It took me a couple months, but I got back into the swing of things.
No one defines who you are, your actions are not depandent on the choices your partner makes. However, the passion you share with another changes the way to think, act and do. They give you and outlet for change. In my life, I would not change a moment because it trained me to be who I am today.
Tough, strong and independent. And one damn good kisser ;)
Oh shit.
Alright, been delaying HW for quite some time. Lets get-er-done.
Its me, Jess. Been a while, eh? I just feel the need to write.
Lately I've been kind of lost. Lost in my school work, drama at work and emotions beyond my control. Its been pretty frustrating, but nothing I can't handle.
Just turned the big 21. I know, its taken long enough! ha Naw, its just nice to have the choice to grab a beer if I need it, or pick up a bottle of wine on my way home from Bobs.
As for the emotional trouble... I just am lost as all hell. It keeps going back to that one feeling, you had that one time, way back when... and trying to find it again, exhausting. haha.
I used to live for the chase, never knowing whats going to happen, who you'll wake up to or what the hell you did last night. Good times.. but I'm over that now. I have just one more year until graduation and now is the time to think about that future of mine.
Super glad I didn't stay in SH and went to CMU. I have a bad feeling that I would still be attached at the hip and dow-eyed for that douche. I was some piece of work back then.
I think I was just not grown-up yet. I didn't know what I wanted or needed, so I attached myself to the first guy I had real feelings for. He just didn't recripate them, so It took me a couple months, but I got back into the swing of things.
No one defines who you are, your actions are not depandent on the choices your partner makes. However, the passion you share with another changes the way to think, act and do. They give you and outlet for change. In my life, I would not change a moment because it trained me to be who I am today.
Tough, strong and independent. And one damn good kisser ;)
Oh shit.
Alright, been delaying HW for quite some time. Lets get-er-done.