Journal Entry January 6 (backdated) [Not Hackable]
I keep asking myself what else might have happened tonight. Certainly there was the potential for the obvious but that was not my primary concern. The other was more important and I failed at even that. Okuni's obviously as intrigued by me as I am by her. There is something keeping us apart though and I have no idea what it is.
It's not Carina; I won't let myself think it's that. Besides there's no way Carina would want me to keep myself celibate on her account, she certainly would not be doing it for me. The knowledge that she is probably gone only further mitigates against my continuing on a path of holding myself for her in any case.
There are rumblings about here that I can't quite read. Rumblings about something going down and I'm uncertain as to whether there is any chance of instituting my plans. If I reveal what I know about who I might be too soon it could precipitate a disaster. I could possibly contact Lulu but there are potential dangers to that course.
There've also been some reports of increased volcanic activity that may put us at risk of major eruptions here. My experiences of the last half year were harrowing enough and now I find myself, by choice, sitting in the middle of three volcanoes. I wonder if another location might be preferable. If I make that decision I may also contemplate who else might be persuaded to come with me.
It's not Carina; I won't let myself think it's that. Besides there's no way Carina would want me to keep myself celibate on her account, she certainly would not be doing it for me. The knowledge that she is probably gone only further mitigates against my continuing on a path of holding myself for her in any case.
There are rumblings about here that I can't quite read. Rumblings about something going down and I'm uncertain as to whether there is any chance of instituting my plans. If I reveal what I know about who I might be too soon it could precipitate a disaster. I could possibly contact Lulu but there are potential dangers to that course.
There've also been some reports of increased volcanic activity that may put us at risk of major eruptions here. My experiences of the last half year were harrowing enough and now I find myself, by choice, sitting in the middle of three volcanoes. I wonder if another location might be preferable. If I make that decision I may also contemplate who else might be persuaded to come with me.