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whoa! hmm let's see i didn't have time to write yesterday so i will tell you about it. It started with morning practice which was HORRIBLE! i almost got there on time but not quite. Then Mr. Jean wouldn't let me go to student council which was having a meeting at 730 which i was TOTALLY looking forward too cuz i HATE Band. So i had to stay at practice, marching on the field. Then Kara said something to me. And i acted like i was mad about it so i "dropped" my clarinet and it broke. This isn't the first time i broke my clarinet but at least last time it was fixable. Now it's not. I can't believe i was that STUPID!! i'm sooo mad at myself. Even tho it was a total piece of crap i still can't believe i did that. AHHH!!! oh well i guess? but then later that day during my study hall which is sixth hour mr. Jean called me to the band room, just to tell me that he was ordering a loaner clarinet while he got the school ones fixed (they're crap too). I was like is that all ???? he called me out of class just to tell me that, it could've waited the 45 minutes until the next hour... he's weird. But i didn't have to play in band on wednesday bc well i didnt' have an instrument. Then i went to church with brit last night. It was pretty good. it was sooo funny bc she was helping me plot how to talk to levi. he plays in the band and i came up with the idea of telling him that he did a good job (even tho we can't really tell bc we don't really hear him). so after church i saw him sitting by himself playing the guitar and we went up to him and brit said "hey are you levi," and he was like "yeah"."o well you did a really good job" "well thankS!" and then she was like "keep it up" lol and i just kinda stood there looking stupid and said uh YEAH! lol but i'm soooo sad that we didn't introduce ourselves... but brit started to walk away so i didn't say anything. WEll sunday's coming up soon..... Now for today:hmmmm we got to school and there was an accident. Then i went in and actually HAD NOOOO homework to do before 1st hour. I'm soooo proud of myself! the day was pretty uneventful i think. Although in american history we played jeopardy, and chris and i were arguing about the score so i slapped him. Not hard though, but it was really awesome. I used to hit him in algebra II last year, but he wasn't expecting it today so he just stood there kinda stunned lol. It was funny. But i really didn't hit him hard, so i'm not that mean. Then i had band and mr. jean was like lauren i have the clarinet and i was liek DARN!! then he was like let's step into my office... so he basically gave me a talk about my attitude. He said that: he had been trying to put off this talk bc some people just go through phases, and some people just have bad weeks/days. i probably had a bad day when i dropped my clarinet yesterday. But i need to step it up because people are watching me. I'm a good piano player, and have done many things that no one else has with the musical and stuff. that when i pick up a horn i can play well (HA). that he likes this band this year and thinks when get a lot of stuff done. that i just need to set a good example. so i'm just sitting there like yeah i guess... but it just makes me mad because i dont' see why i should try when i know we aren't going to succeed. I know i'm not perfect, but when i know that i'm going to the right spot or doing something the right way and others aren't i just get mad. a bunch of people on my side are messing it up so why should i try to be right when i'm just going to have to be wrong with them... there's 5 yards between me and the next person on both sides so no matter what i look stupid!! i just dont' care, I HATE MORNING PRACTICE, i don't wanna be there so why should i act like it. And when he says that ppl look to me bc i'm section leader that's all wrong, bc i try to correct people and they don't even listen, so i've just given up. FORGET THAT!! i'm sooo happy ONLY TWO DAYS LEFT!!!! ahhh!!! on a lighter note, DISA CAME OVER after school today. We just kinda hung out and talked to katy on the phone. We also listened to my ringers on my phone, i think i'm gonna get LEAN BACK!! cuz i love that song!!! YAYA!!!!! well i gotta go because i need to study for THE CONSTITUTION TEST! and do my other homework before jazz practice!
LORRAINE~
LORRAINE~