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Hi, Journal.
Today was the scariest day at work. I was convinced I would get fired. As I arrived this morning, my boss, David told me to go to my office and figure out what mistakes I made yesterday. He looked very serious. Shaken, I walked to my desk and leafed through all my paperwork a dozen times. I could not find a single problem. Then I realized, it must have something to do with what we shipped, and just as I was looking for the shipping log, Dave came in looking for the answer.
I admitted that I had no idea what I did wrong. He grabbed the shipping log and proceeded to show me three or four mistakes I had made: Everything from invoice mistakes to UPS mistakes. I didn't know what to say or do. I was so humbled. So far, I've done everything perfectly. But yesterday was one huge mess. I don't handle things like that very well. I was terrified he would fire me, because I witnessed him fire a girl on the spot on her first day yesterday. Work should not drain me this much. At least not this job.
I must have had three different dreams about Ara last night. Yesterday was way too dramatic, even for my own taste, and I realize that it's mostly because of my actions. But I wanted to stand up for myself and confront the issue. Part of me is glad I did, and another part is worried that Ara thinks I'm a crazy bitch. The crazy thing is, I feel like I broke up with Ara yesterday. It's been over a month and a half, but the healing process is starting from scratch.
We have a treadmill at work and so I ran for one of my half hour breaks. It was so tiring, but invigorating as well. I know I have so many things to focus on, and it's weird to think that Ara is not one of those things. I'm getting paid, studying for GMAT (end of the month!!), prepping for a really great job, working out, and reconciling ties with my mom. When I really think about it, things are looking up. But I have to force my chin into the direction of those things...no sulking for me.
Today was the scariest day at work. I was convinced I would get fired. As I arrived this morning, my boss, David told me to go to my office and figure out what mistakes I made yesterday. He looked very serious. Shaken, I walked to my desk and leafed through all my paperwork a dozen times. I could not find a single problem. Then I realized, it must have something to do with what we shipped, and just as I was looking for the shipping log, Dave came in looking for the answer.
I admitted that I had no idea what I did wrong. He grabbed the shipping log and proceeded to show me three or four mistakes I had made: Everything from invoice mistakes to UPS mistakes. I didn't know what to say or do. I was so humbled. So far, I've done everything perfectly. But yesterday was one huge mess. I don't handle things like that very well. I was terrified he would fire me, because I witnessed him fire a girl on the spot on her first day yesterday. Work should not drain me this much. At least not this job.
I must have had three different dreams about Ara last night. Yesterday was way too dramatic, even for my own taste, and I realize that it's mostly because of my actions. But I wanted to stand up for myself and confront the issue. Part of me is glad I did, and another part is worried that Ara thinks I'm a crazy bitch. The crazy thing is, I feel like I broke up with Ara yesterday. It's been over a month and a half, but the healing process is starting from scratch.
We have a treadmill at work and so I ran for one of my half hour breaks. It was so tiring, but invigorating as well. I know I have so many things to focus on, and it's weird to think that Ara is not one of those things. I'm getting paid, studying for GMAT (end of the month!!), prepping for a really great job, working out, and reconciling ties with my mom. When I really think about it, things are looking up. But I have to force my chin into the direction of those things...no sulking for me.