Hey, do I know the true you?
How about updating this one before I update my livejournal... just for odd times sake. Sigh.
Let's just ignore the fact that I have goggles sitting on my head.
::Cracks fingers::
^I really did^
Yesterday, Sat. was DnD night... day... yeah. And well, I had work. And anyways, I've decided to pull out of the group. Why? Not because of work, I have personal problems, other than the fact that I'm somewhat ashamed ot it. Don't bother asking me guys, I'm not gonna tell you.
As you probably know by now, you should, my last two entries was about it, I have a job now. The whole idea of having a job kinda creeps me out. It reminds me that I'm-- we're -- constantly growing up. Scary thought, moving out and all.( I'm aware that some of you can't wait to move out and go on yer own... so you can save yer fingers by telling me you can't wait.)
And with that, my whole life has been changing. So far, all the fortune cookies that I've eaten during work hours have been true about my life. Kinda weird. Part of me is loving this change, part of me is hating it. I'm still deeply terrfied at thefact that one day I'll be grown up, and maybe have some kids of my own. Which leads to... how will my kids act at my age? (15) How can I raise them to be good kids, or semi-good kids. Will I encourage some form of lessons on them? (I'm actually intrested in ballet and/or karate lessons for my child if it's a girl... then eventually... skating lessons... I want her to be a figure skater! Whee... we'll see. Not forcing anything on her.) It's true that I put too much thought into this. Maybe I shouldn't.
But, there's pieces of me that are glad that I'm getting older. I mean... dude... no parents... whee! The whole thing that I'm fending for myself more lately feels so nice, just paying for my own stuff. Not only that, but I think the way I act is now changing. (Just ignore the fact that I feel I don't fit in with anyone.) But... now... I think a little more than before, now I can see a crapload of different personality paths... I sorta see this as good. And... I think I'm becoming overall nicer... maybe.... excluding Amy/Lamy.... mm... scratch that, I was nice to her towards the end of service today. It's a whole buncha hoopla.
I still feel as if I have no one to share this hoopla with.
Movin' on.
The drawing world. I haven't been drawing decently lately, or drawing at all. I still do, just not as often. I still realize that I draw Lanias way too much.
Stemming from that, Mighty Masked Hero has a new look... whee.... NO IT'S NOT LAN! Ahem...
He gets his own seperate mini-comic too!
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My mind is going blank.
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J.P.
P.S. Someone find a good survey for me!
P.S.S. I know my title has nothing to do with the entry.
Let's just ignore the fact that I have goggles sitting on my head.
::Cracks fingers::
^I really did^
Yesterday, Sat. was DnD night... day... yeah. And well, I had work. And anyways, I've decided to pull out of the group. Why? Not because of work, I have personal problems, other than the fact that I'm somewhat ashamed ot it. Don't bother asking me guys, I'm not gonna tell you.
As you probably know by now, you should, my last two entries was about it, I have a job now. The whole idea of having a job kinda creeps me out. It reminds me that I'm-- we're -- constantly growing up. Scary thought, moving out and all.( I'm aware that some of you can't wait to move out and go on yer own... so you can save yer fingers by telling me you can't wait.)
And with that, my whole life has been changing. So far, all the fortune cookies that I've eaten during work hours have been true about my life. Kinda weird. Part of me is loving this change, part of me is hating it. I'm still deeply terrfied at thefact that one day I'll be grown up, and maybe have some kids of my own. Which leads to... how will my kids act at my age? (15) How can I raise them to be good kids, or semi-good kids. Will I encourage some form of lessons on them? (I'm actually intrested in ballet and/or karate lessons for my child if it's a girl... then eventually... skating lessons... I want her to be a figure skater! Whee... we'll see. Not forcing anything on her.) It's true that I put too much thought into this. Maybe I shouldn't.
But, there's pieces of me that are glad that I'm getting older. I mean... dude... no parents... whee! The whole thing that I'm fending for myself more lately feels so nice, just paying for my own stuff. Not only that, but I think the way I act is now changing. (Just ignore the fact that I feel I don't fit in with anyone.) But... now... I think a little more than before, now I can see a crapload of different personality paths... I sorta see this as good. And... I think I'm becoming overall nicer... maybe.... excluding Amy/Lamy.... mm... scratch that, I was nice to her towards the end of service today. It's a whole buncha hoopla.
I still feel as if I have no one to share this hoopla with.
Movin' on.
The drawing world. I haven't been drawing decently lately, or drawing at all. I still do, just not as often. I still realize that I draw Lanias way too much.
Stemming from that, Mighty Masked Hero has a new look... whee.... NO IT'S NOT LAN! Ahem...
He gets his own seperate mini-comic too!
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My mind is going blank.
---
J.P.
P.S. Someone find a good survey for me!
P.S.S. I know my title has nothing to do with the entry.