I'm Going To Make It Count This Year.
Wow, the year went by real fast. I can remember everything that happened as if it wasn't long ago. Alot happened, lot of good. I, myself, didn't accomplish anything..but two people did. I've let them know how proud I am of them. They changed for the better..I look at them in amazement. They both did something I've never seen done..they did something great and amazing..and that is encouraging to me. Proves that you can do anything if you want to bad enough, just don't give up and put your mind to it.
I wan't to make people proud of me this year. I wan't to make myself proud. I wan't to be able to look back at the end of the year and say "I did it." I wan't to make my grandma proud. I woke up about 5 minutes before 12AM last night, just in time for the new year. I went outside and waited for 12 to come..and I did what Jess asked me to do. After, I just sat there for a little while..thinking..
My grandma went into the hospital this week from a heart attack, ironically the same day and time as the teacher did that passed away of a heart attack. She has been diagnosed with pulmonary embolism, which is a blood clot that blocks and artery in the lung. 30,000 people a year die from this in the United States...she could be one of them. I'm not going to lie and say she can't be, it's reality. My mom told me how she was in the room with her, holding her hand and her skin turned gray and she told my mom she couldn't see her face and to leave the room so she didn't have to see this..that got to me. Shes the same one I made an entry about a little while ago. She's always believed in me, always said I was her favorite grandson..always wanted to see me make it out of here..and I feel I've let her down. After my sister quit school and ended up getting her GED, I always said I wouldn't ever quit and that she would be able to see me graduate..I didn't stick to that. Then all she wanted was for me to finish my homeschooling, she encouraged me to do it, always asked how it was going..always was concerned.
Well, either way this goes..I'm going to make her proud. I'm going to show everyone I can do it. Theres alot I want to do and I've just been sitting around taking time for granted when it's really not there to take. I'm tired of people looking at me as a loser, that I won't ammount to anything..so it's my time to show and prove.
So next week I'm going to the bank, I'm putting pretty much all I have left in. Then buying stamps, sending a check to my school for probably $150, then I only have about $120 left to pay. Then sending my little brother the letter I wrote back to him and the one to his mom...and Bries Christmas card and stuff. Then it's on to my car. Get that started once again and take it over to this guys garage and fix it up and get my license finally. Those are the major goals, theres various other things also. With my sister moving out I won't be watching Tara anymore, which is nice..but means I lose $100 every other week from her. So I may need to get a little night job to make up for that.
I'm sorry if you are bored and thinking I've said this same stuff over and over before and won't do it..but your just one of the people I'm ready to prove wrong. I'm done now. Happy New Year to you all, I hope you get what you wan't to do accomplished.
I wan't to make people proud of me this year. I wan't to make myself proud. I wan't to be able to look back at the end of the year and say "I did it." I wan't to make my grandma proud. I woke up about 5 minutes before 12AM last night, just in time for the new year. I went outside and waited for 12 to come..and I did what Jess asked me to do. After, I just sat there for a little while..thinking..
My grandma went into the hospital this week from a heart attack, ironically the same day and time as the teacher did that passed away of a heart attack. She has been diagnosed with pulmonary embolism, which is a blood clot that blocks and artery in the lung. 30,000 people a year die from this in the United States...she could be one of them. I'm not going to lie and say she can't be, it's reality. My mom told me how she was in the room with her, holding her hand and her skin turned gray and she told my mom she couldn't see her face and to leave the room so she didn't have to see this..that got to me. Shes the same one I made an entry about a little while ago. She's always believed in me, always said I was her favorite grandson..always wanted to see me make it out of here..and I feel I've let her down. After my sister quit school and ended up getting her GED, I always said I wouldn't ever quit and that she would be able to see me graduate..I didn't stick to that. Then all she wanted was for me to finish my homeschooling, she encouraged me to do it, always asked how it was going..always was concerned.
Well, either way this goes..I'm going to make her proud. I'm going to show everyone I can do it. Theres alot I want to do and I've just been sitting around taking time for granted when it's really not there to take. I'm tired of people looking at me as a loser, that I won't ammount to anything..so it's my time to show and prove.
So next week I'm going to the bank, I'm putting pretty much all I have left in. Then buying stamps, sending a check to my school for probably $150, then I only have about $120 left to pay. Then sending my little brother the letter I wrote back to him and the one to his mom...and Bries Christmas card and stuff. Then it's on to my car. Get that started once again and take it over to this guys garage and fix it up and get my license finally. Those are the major goals, theres various other things also. With my sister moving out I won't be watching Tara anymore, which is nice..but means I lose $100 every other week from her. So I may need to get a little night job to make up for that.
I'm sorry if you are bored and thinking I've said this same stuff over and over before and won't do it..but your just one of the people I'm ready to prove wrong. I'm done now. Happy New Year to you all, I hope you get what you wan't to do accomplished.