heh
But listen, I'm fucked up now, DONT ask why yall
SOMETIMES THE BEST MEDICINE IS JUST TO CRY YALL..
and I wont front like I ain't STRESSIN
SOMETIMES I NEED A HUG, real shit, PAIN SHARED IS PAIN LESSONED
I seem to be going back to the whole no sleep thing again. I didn't mind it last week cause I had Jess to talk to..but theres no one now. Just me and my thoughts. DIE THOUGHTS DIE!
So totally ignoring all bad thoughts..
I figure after Christmas I can do some things. For example, school. Yeah yeah..I know I've said this 9985645649064 times and never do it..different this time, I promise that. That'll take one thing of the list that throws me in a "loser" category. Speaking of Christmas..reminds me that I gotta go to the bank and throw about $100 up in there..then I can buy Jess' present! Which is still in the deciding phase cause I jusssst don't know!..so, the holiday, def. coming too fast.
I have to address something real quick. Now..its crazy that some people would get mad that when Jess is online that I ignore them and only talk to her. Are you serious?! Internet being my only way of fuckin talkin to her and your mad cause I'm going to put all my attention on her while shes on?!! The truth hurts? You telling me that I ignore you when shes on hurts me? I never even denied such a thing, I have said many time..I PAY NO ATTENTION TO ANYTHING OTHER THAN JESS! Man, you all know how I get when I don't get to talk to her, wtf would you complain when I get the chance?! Say what you want, I do not care. Get all the people you wan't to agree with your view, I do not care. Insane, so w/e.
Live ya life like me then you'll end up on a path to nowhere
Not doin a thing but always complain that its unfair
Need to get outta here, I'm just tired of it all
I'ma be out for my own, no one to pick me up if I fall
I don't need it though, I can handle what comes
Still havent broke and stress piles on by the tons
I take if full force cause I have no source of escaping
Cause I never done any drugs and stay away from drinking
But those are choices of my own cause I can't forget my past
I can't fall into the family curse, with my mindstate I wouldn't last
This isn't suppose to be me, I'm suppose to be able to handle this
I was open for a little before but closed right back up real quick
Someday I'll learn to ask for help, cause I've heard its ok to do
Sometimes we all need somebody to lean on, just gotta find whos there for you.
BLAH! HI BAD THOUGHTS, MISSED YOU MY FRIENDS!
Anyway...really don't have much else to say, and I'd hate to end this on a sad note, but this is gettin to me and fuckin me all up...but before I get into it..Jess, hun...I Love You :-*
R.I.P. Evelyn Muscato(August 8, 1941 - November 25, 2004)
I'm a little late with this and for that I am sorry. Also, sorry I didn't get to your wake or funeral. Under the circumstances, I'm sure youd understand, but in my mind there is no excuse. You were and are still one of the nicest people I've ever known, could always bring a smile to someones face. I'm not even sure what you were to me really, but in my heart you are def. considered family. Never will forget the holidays, the summers, or any other times. I know your up there looking down upon us and watching out for everyone..and I hope they are alright. Truely one of the greatest people to ever walk the earth, you will be missed but never forgotten. :-\
SOMETIMES THE BEST MEDICINE IS JUST TO CRY YALL..
and I wont front like I ain't STRESSIN
SOMETIMES I NEED A HUG, real shit, PAIN SHARED IS PAIN LESSONED
I seem to be going back to the whole no sleep thing again. I didn't mind it last week cause I had Jess to talk to..but theres no one now. Just me and my thoughts. DIE THOUGHTS DIE!
So totally ignoring all bad thoughts..
I figure after Christmas I can do some things. For example, school. Yeah yeah..I know I've said this 9985645649064 times and never do it..different this time, I promise that. That'll take one thing of the list that throws me in a "loser" category. Speaking of Christmas..reminds me that I gotta go to the bank and throw about $100 up in there..then I can buy Jess' present! Which is still in the deciding phase cause I jusssst don't know!..so, the holiday, def. coming too fast.
I have to address something real quick. Now..its crazy that some people would get mad that when Jess is online that I ignore them and only talk to her. Are you serious?! Internet being my only way of fuckin talkin to her and your mad cause I'm going to put all my attention on her while shes on?!! The truth hurts? You telling me that I ignore you when shes on hurts me? I never even denied such a thing, I have said many time..I PAY NO ATTENTION TO ANYTHING OTHER THAN JESS! Man, you all know how I get when I don't get to talk to her, wtf would you complain when I get the chance?! Say what you want, I do not care. Get all the people you wan't to agree with your view, I do not care. Insane, so w/e.
Live ya life like me then you'll end up on a path to nowhere
Not doin a thing but always complain that its unfair
Need to get outta here, I'm just tired of it all
I'ma be out for my own, no one to pick me up if I fall
I don't need it though, I can handle what comes
Still havent broke and stress piles on by the tons
I take if full force cause I have no source of escaping
Cause I never done any drugs and stay away from drinking
But those are choices of my own cause I can't forget my past
I can't fall into the family curse, with my mindstate I wouldn't last
This isn't suppose to be me, I'm suppose to be able to handle this
I was open for a little before but closed right back up real quick
Someday I'll learn to ask for help, cause I've heard its ok to do
Sometimes we all need somebody to lean on, just gotta find whos there for you.
BLAH! HI BAD THOUGHTS, MISSED YOU MY FRIENDS!
Anyway...really don't have much else to say, and I'd hate to end this on a sad note, but this is gettin to me and fuckin me all up...but before I get into it..Jess, hun...I Love You :-*
R.I.P. Evelyn Muscato(August 8, 1941 - November 25, 2004)
I'm a little late with this and for that I am sorry. Also, sorry I didn't get to your wake or funeral. Under the circumstances, I'm sure youd understand, but in my mind there is no excuse. You were and are still one of the nicest people I've ever known, could always bring a smile to someones face. I'm not even sure what you were to me really, but in my heart you are def. considered family. Never will forget the holidays, the summers, or any other times. I know your up there looking down upon us and watching out for everyone..and I hope they are alright. Truely one of the greatest people to ever walk the earth, you will be missed but never forgotten. :-\