I want you, but I'm not giving in this time
So....I'm tired of it. Of guys that don't treat me right and don't see that they've done anything wrong. I might have made some mistakes, but that doesn't mean that I deserved to be treated the way that I was. Up until a certain point I did everything the perfect girlfriend should do...and I never felt appreciated at all. I almost feel used....but one thing I know I feel is hurt. Why can't I ever find a genuine guy that likes me for who I am. An old-fashioned guy who opens doors for me, randomly brings me flowers, calls me just to say hi, and takes care of me like he should? Do guys like that even exist anymore?
To Him:
I've had my prince charming built up in my mind for a very long time...and you are definately not it. You walked all over me and never even thought anything of it. You always thought that you were right about everything and half of the time you never even gave me a chance to explain my side. You were always so manipulative and turned things around on me. I don't even know why I wasted my time with you. My friends were right all along...I'm so stupid for not listening to them. You took something from me that I'll never be able to have back ever again....and I'll probably never be able to forget you, but you didn't break me down. I will be strong without you. And believe me I'll be able to find somebody so much better. Somebody who can treat me right and not tell me and treat me like I'm nothing to them. I did everything I possibly could for you and you did nothing. Why was I so blind? I guess that the only thing I rememberd when I thought of us was the feeling that I had when you kissed me or held me. It wasn't a good feeling that it was coming from you...it was just that somebody was finally paying some attention to me, and it was finally my turn. Well, I'm over that. I can feel love from my family and friends and I don't need you for that. I hate that I keep coming back to you, but no more. I'm done with it. I hate how you disrespect my best friends, whom I have known and cared about way longer than you. You had no right to ever treat them or me like you did. How can you be so ignorant??? You sit there and tell me that you have no idea why anybody thinks that you did anything wrong in our relationship....you screwed up so many times that I can't even count it. I was just too nice of a person to tell you what you did...and too nice to tell you NO! That's all done with because right now I want nothing to do with you. You make me feel worthless and I don't need that around me. The people that I have around me now are amazing and you do not need to be one of those people. I can thank you for one thing....teaching me what I never want in a relationship.