/wonder
It amazes me that he can love me so much. When it finally dawned on me just how much I loved him, I was so afraid. I had always been the person in relationships who could never love the other quite enough, so when Geoffrey came along, I thought that I was finally being put in the other person's shoes...it would always be me loving him more, and I couldn't do that to him, or myself. It hurts to not love a person as much as they love you. I got lucky I guess...he really does love me. Even when I'm sick, grumpy, a mess. And I love him just the same. It's mutual love. Mutual happy. Mutual amazement at how things work out sometimes...
And as if just the thought of him doesn't bring a grin to my face, Crazy goes and dedicates a song to me, via MySpace, and I'm going to post the lyrics if you want to read them, because the song brought tears to my eyes and a huge smile to my face. I love him :-)
"Early April Morning"
Brendan James
There used to be nothing in common, there used to be nothing to share
It used to be sit by the window, and stare at what used to be there
It used to be lonely in numbers, impossibly weak on my feet
When the game starts and one person’s left out, it used to be me
But that was then and she is now, I once was lost with her I’m found, on this early April morning
Water falling from the sky, the sun that’s breaking fills my eye, and it came without a warning now
There used to be nothing in common, there used to be nothing to share
It used to be sit by the window, and stare at what used to be there
Like a king in his court at his table, who is blind to the power he holds
I could never come to understand all the powers I had of my own
But that was then and she is now, I once was lost with her I’m found on this early April morning
Water falling from the sky, the sun that’s breaking fills my eye, and it came without a warning now
I trust my love, I trust myself, I trust the love of someone else
I trust that I will get what I’ve been hoping, waiting for
The prison walls are crashing down as winter dies without a sound, on this early April Morning
Let the struggle end, the joy begin, it’s true it’s love I’m falling in, and it came without a warning now
And that was then and she is now, I once was lost with her I’m found on this early April morning
The water falling from the sky, the sun that’s breaking fills my eye, and it came without a warning now