delusions
so i've been sick for a while, and i've been going out and about town, i think its a stupid idea for me to be doing that because not only do i feel like crap, but i feel weak and well delusional. i've been listening to a lot of music when im home, mainly portishead and APC. ok and Rufus Wainwright. last night i basically drank my whole bottle of tylenol cold meds. lol i had trippy dreams. i kept dreaming of things and all my dreams would end up with me burning on fire by means of fire and candle wax. and i would always be in a hospital. i think i dreamed those things because every time i would i would notice that the song The Nurse who loved me and The Noose would be playing. oi i really want to get out of the house again which i am, but my body is so...tired....i just want to lay down and sleep forever but i have hw. oi oi oi..... other than my sickness life is WONDERFUL. really it is.
Andrew is as sweet as always, School is well school. lol. its almost over 4 more months. then im a senior. ^_^ then that will go by quickly, and then i'll be out of the house by age of 17! and headed to Seattle! hopefully nothing bad will happen between Andrew and i, becuase he'll come with me and live with me! ^_^ i love him so much. ^_^ he makes my heart all giddy with joy.
Andrew is as sweet as always, School is well school. lol. its almost over 4 more months. then im a senior. ^_^ then that will go by quickly, and then i'll be out of the house by age of 17! and headed to Seattle! hopefully nothing bad will happen between Andrew and i, becuase he'll come with me and live with me! ^_^ i love him so much. ^_^ he makes my heart all giddy with joy.