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I thought I might put in a few thoughts before the fifth of November is over.
I have been living different latley, although much of my normal life remains. It seems to me I can see what I have always looked at but never observed till now. I dont me a revelation or epiphany, I mean I simply see a dim reflection, where i saw only a shadow before. What it is is life. Not the biological process, altough amazing in itself, it is the function. What I see here is the form. This is truer than I ever knew, "stop, and smell the roses." You and I, all of us are part of something much bigger and amazing than our selves. The whole we make up is breathtaking, but so is each part. I suppose I could live a million years and not take it all in. There is so much in a moment, we just let pass. I suppose this could be called existential thinking, but i think that is a litte too much of a label for what it simply is to live. In each moment, there is so much. All I can do is sit, stand, lay in awe of what it is to live. Why am I so blessed? I will never know. But I am glad it is good. I love it, and moreso the one who gives it to me.
Every one of us knows this, and it is literally painfull to think of all the suffering that goes on each moment as well. We deny it and put up our walls, wear veils, to hide us from life. I don't know why. There is so much I dont know. But, I am content. I want to live, and if that means taking each step as if it were my first, so be it. I am alive now, I cant say I will be in a moment. Now is all we have. Live it, friends, family, loved ones. It is a gift too precious to waste even a single moment. And if you find yourself wasting it, like I often do. Stop, and smell the roses.