It's been a while.
Well lets see in the past few weeks stuff has happened. My new thing to do for everyone is just F*** their lives. I try to be a good person and help but it seems to me my kindness just hurts someone in the end. I really dont mean to hurt anyone but i guess i just have a curse on me or something for the time being. And also boy do i hate guys, my ex asked me out again and yeah i like him and sometimes i do wish i was with him but deep down inside i know hes not for me, hes my best friend and thats all he will ever be to me we just dont have that romance and i know he still has feelings but you know i think he just needs time and i hate to hang out with him sometimes cuz i dont want to lead him on. And than theres this other guy we hung out once and kissed but nothing more and than at the end of the night he told me we were just going to be friends. And than i thought maybe something will happen well once again i thought wrong so he doesnt talk to me anymore boy is he such an A**!!! well forget him. And then theres this other guy who i work with and he works in another department and he goes to my school and were cool with eachother and i did like him but i wasnt obsessive over him because i only saw him once in awhile at work, i would normaly visit him on my breaks and sit and talk to him but that was once in a while and i say hi to him in school. Well he got a girlfriend and i was a little upset but i didnt care to much i was mad at first but then i just got use to it cuz i couldnt change it, well i think my brother told him i liked him since they talk at work and this boy told my brother to tell me that i need to leave him alone because he has gf, BS like come on i barely talk to him and even when we do talk its all about him, and im just mad at the fact that he implies that i obsess over him when i like dont even see him much, grr what the H***!!! I dont know what to do anymore, you know all i want is a nice guy to go out with and that i can have with for my last year of highschool, nothing serious but i guess im asking for to much. Maybe i should just stop and forget but the problem is im to boy crazy. Well maybe things will settle down in a little while. Yeah well thats pretty much all my drama for now except for some small things but those wont last. But school is pretty much over tomorrow is are last full day and than finals, yes finally and im going to be a senior oh boy i cant wait!!!! It is sad but than again im excited for the future i get to live more and experience more. Well i have to go there are things to be done before bed. Good night to all.