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Today is the day i rebirth.
and become a new person but the same Crystalll.
i never realised how much of a monster i had become, so lost in a thick unpenatrable nutshell, so close-minded and it pretty much disgusted me.
how can i ever expect someone to love me when i am worse than the beast from the fairytale. Dishonest was word used to describe me, NEVER again do i want someone to say that. The abuse i have taken has not made me like this, i have.
therefore i am going to just meditate all day, detox my body of everything bad. & when i come down from that personal high i hope to have a change of heart. And from there i will work on becoming the amazing person i once was. Going back isnt changing it is recessing. I will become the amazing person i know that i can be, the one who is lost within the nutshell. If i had a God today i would be asking him to help me, but seeing as i dont im on my own with this one.
"..We've looked and looked, but after all where are we?
Do we know any better where we are,
And how it stands between the night to-night
And a man with a smoky lantern chimney?
How different from the way it ever stood?"
-The Star Spliter by Robert Frost
and become a new person but the same Crystalll.
i never realised how much of a monster i had become, so lost in a thick unpenatrable nutshell, so close-minded and it pretty much disgusted me.
how can i ever expect someone to love me when i am worse than the beast from the fairytale. Dishonest was word used to describe me, NEVER again do i want someone to say that. The abuse i have taken has not made me like this, i have.
therefore i am going to just meditate all day, detox my body of everything bad. & when i come down from that personal high i hope to have a change of heart. And from there i will work on becoming the amazing person i once was. Going back isnt changing it is recessing. I will become the amazing person i know that i can be, the one who is lost within the nutshell. If i had a God today i would be asking him to help me, but seeing as i dont im on my own with this one.
"..We've looked and looked, but after all where are we?
Do we know any better where we are,
And how it stands between the night to-night
And a man with a smoky lantern chimney?
How different from the way it ever stood?"
-The Star Spliter by Robert Frost