Stange...
Strange things happend today...Stupid Dak and coss *cries*
Anyway
I'm in a poetic mood
but have no words
to describe my mix of angsty depression and girly hopefulness...mixed together with the ultimately ever lasting lonelyness of being simply me...the kate...little sister, freak, and friend but nothing more extrodinare...hang on...must grab aqua for grams.
Back...
When youre broken...
And youre glass heart's been shattered
on the floor a dozen times or more...
You age a little
You ice over
But you always fake the real..
The smiles
The laughter
Every happy ever after
that you make up
To hide the scars
Of the breakup..
You need to let go
when he calls, just say no
Get over him and move on
Words so pointless..
easyer said than done....
When for years your heart's bean yearning
to fell the fires of a love that's burning
you from the inside out..
When all youve ever wanted
was to love
to hold
to cherish in your heart forever
but forever's become never
and just like autum fades to winter
Does my heart crack and splinter..
Charred from the fire
Broken from the lies
Why am I the only one...Who never seems suprised?
To die
to feel
to live
to be real....
Is it any different now?
A Yearning
Desire
Self obsessed
Obnoxious liar...
Dont you hate it when you're you?
~I really cant get it out tonight.....cant write..can I? oh well..I'll keep going~
A song
Now makes me crumble
brings me to tears
resurfaces my fears..
the pain
still so real..
I miss the numbness..
Before you made me feel...
And my tears were always dry
My pain was locked inside
Not spelt out on my skin
Soft white and smooth
Translucent in the spotlight
Like my words..
I never could quite get it out
to tell you how I felt
I drafted, composed,
and when the time came
my throat closed
Youve always had that effect on me..
Surreal..
Exotic..
The way your voice was like a tonic..
It eased my suffering..
But then came the torturing..
Messing with my heart..
Fucking with my mind..
Why does it seem
That it's me who's always blind?
Youre so far gone
and have been for so long
yet youre still awlays on my mind...
your voice
your smile
your beautiful blue eyes...
You haunt my every waking moment
and when I sleep it's worse..
Why did I have to love you?
Why did you have to break me?
"Youre UGLY!"
"I hate you!"
"You stupid fucking bitch"
"Youre not cute, not funny"
Words..
Hurt me
More than
The blades
I danced with
Once upon a time
When reality was mine
to play with
to fuck with
to bend and twist upon my whim..
I miss the drug...
Adrenaline..
My best friend..
to block the ache
in my empty heart...
without the steel kisses...
I find myself
Falling apart..
faster
and faster...
spiraling
down
into
disaster..
but I
never hit
the ground.......
Anyway
I'm in a poetic mood
but have no words
to describe my mix of angsty depression and girly hopefulness...mixed together with the ultimately ever lasting lonelyness of being simply me...the kate...little sister, freak, and friend but nothing more extrodinare...hang on...must grab aqua for grams.
Back...
When youre broken...
And youre glass heart's been shattered
on the floor a dozen times or more...
You age a little
You ice over
But you always fake the real..
The smiles
The laughter
Every happy ever after
that you make up
To hide the scars
Of the breakup..
You need to let go
when he calls, just say no
Get over him and move on
Words so pointless..
easyer said than done....
When for years your heart's bean yearning
to fell the fires of a love that's burning
you from the inside out..
When all youve ever wanted
was to love
to hold
to cherish in your heart forever
but forever's become never
and just like autum fades to winter
Does my heart crack and splinter..
Charred from the fire
Broken from the lies
Why am I the only one...Who never seems suprised?
To die
to feel
to live
to be real....
Is it any different now?
A Yearning
Desire
Self obsessed
Obnoxious liar...
Dont you hate it when you're you?
~I really cant get it out tonight.....cant write..can I? oh well..I'll keep going~
A song
Now makes me crumble
brings me to tears
resurfaces my fears..
the pain
still so real..
I miss the numbness..
Before you made me feel...
And my tears were always dry
My pain was locked inside
Not spelt out on my skin
Soft white and smooth
Translucent in the spotlight
Like my words..
I never could quite get it out
to tell you how I felt
I drafted, composed,
and when the time came
my throat closed
Youve always had that effect on me..
Surreal..
Exotic..
The way your voice was like a tonic..
It eased my suffering..
But then came the torturing..
Messing with my heart..
Fucking with my mind..
Why does it seem
That it's me who's always blind?
Youre so far gone
and have been for so long
yet youre still awlays on my mind...
your voice
your smile
your beautiful blue eyes...
You haunt my every waking moment
and when I sleep it's worse..
Why did I have to love you?
Why did you have to break me?
"Youre UGLY!"
"I hate you!"
"You stupid fucking bitch"
"Youre not cute, not funny"
Words..
Hurt me
More than
The blades
I danced with
Once upon a time
When reality was mine
to play with
to fuck with
to bend and twist upon my whim..
I miss the drug...
Adrenaline..
My best friend..
to block the ache
in my empty heart...
without the steel kisses...
I find myself
Falling apart..
faster
and faster...
spiraling
down
into
disaster..
but I
never hit
the ground.......