Torn between a life, a love, and a second thought...My breath becomes merely forgotten.

[l1f3srequiem]

So..I met this guy Matt, kinda...on the phone. He's everything my cousin said he was...He reminds me SOOOOOOOOOOO much of a nicer version of Doug...and is about the same age as him...But I'm pulling out before I even get into that mess...Because I think it upset Amy somthing awful....and Id rather keep a friend, and a family member, than pursue a guy who more than likely isnt interested anyway... I fell asleep after 4 some time on the phone with Matt...the 20 min of dozing I got was nice untill Brandon called me and I started freaking out and crying because I felt like shit, then practically hung up on the poor boy...My head hurts right now...My eyes burn like someone took red hot branding irons and shoved them into my corneas and spun them around in the marshmallow substance my eyes would have become...My heart hurts...My mind hurts...Im confused and lost and stupid and alone and isnt this a wonderful first post in a while?

Im going to go clean..
Bye..