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i had originally planned on a long entry about the fun me and chelsea had when we were drunk... about having to pee every five seconds, hitting my head on the glass cabinet, mixing vodka with lemonade, walking out of the bathroom with no pants on telling her to take a picture of my ass... trying to walk a straight line also known as the wire to the ps2 controller... but thats not what people want to hear...
people want to hear about how i regret what i did because i didnt realize how much it affected my friends, and how disapointed they would be. i didnt realize that everyone thought i was completely against drinking even though im not, and that i was all that kept people from drinking again. i hate that i let you all down and i hate that im not the person you all thought i was... or something along those lines... im not sure what im feeling right now, but what bothers me the most is that i hurt so many people and i feel so terribly guilty but i never realized how deeply that affects some people, or how that would change peoples view on me... i dont know what to say, except im sorry, and i honestly wont do it again, nothings worth letting down the ones you love.
rich im so sorry, you know you're the one that really gets to me, i didnt think you'd have a problem with it cuz of what you said about arley and joey and honestly if you had never brought that up i would have never done it, cuz thats the only reason i thought it wouldn't bother you, i really hope this doesn't screw things up again, and im sorry if im not the person you thought i was. im starting to think im not the person i thought i was either.
todays the day i pray that we make it through
make it through the fall
make it through it all
people want to hear about how i regret what i did because i didnt realize how much it affected my friends, and how disapointed they would be. i didnt realize that everyone thought i was completely against drinking even though im not, and that i was all that kept people from drinking again. i hate that i let you all down and i hate that im not the person you all thought i was... or something along those lines... im not sure what im feeling right now, but what bothers me the most is that i hurt so many people and i feel so terribly guilty but i never realized how deeply that affects some people, or how that would change peoples view on me... i dont know what to say, except im sorry, and i honestly wont do it again, nothings worth letting down the ones you love.
rich im so sorry, you know you're the one that really gets to me, i didnt think you'd have a problem with it cuz of what you said about arley and joey and honestly if you had never brought that up i would have never done it, cuz thats the only reason i thought it wouldn't bother you, i really hope this doesn't screw things up again, and im sorry if im not the person you thought i was. im starting to think im not the person i thought i was either.
todays the day i pray that we make it through
make it through the fall
make it through it all