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my dad just got off the phone with manda, and i heard him tell her he loves her and for some reason im so jealous, i cant remember the last time he told me that, then again she's not a screw up like i am. im the one who's an embarassment to the family, the one they have to lie about my grades to, the one that has to always wear long sleeves so the rest of the family thinks that we're perfect. we're not, so get over it, they're not either. i love my mom, she told my grandpa everything that happened, my arm, he understands, if we were a real family they'd understand too, theyd want to help if anything. thats the way i real family is. so my dad basically told me that im not going to go to college, which i still had intentions of doing. he goes, do you like hair dressing? are you interested in that? me- no not really... why?
dad- because there offering a class for it at bossis (sp?) and you can take it and then you'll be set the second you get out of highschool
diane- yah cuz you wont want to be going to college right?
me- i kinda do.
diane- you cant with your grades
me- im doing better now, i've been going to extra help, every day except when i have rock club
it went on and on, and i told my dad that i didnt think with bosis id be able to take chamber choir and hes like the fun classes aren't the important ones, dont base your ability to do well on an elective class that wont get you anywhere... last time i checked you didnt need math or history to be a hair dresser. then he was telling me how the a school would make things a lot easier for me, you cant really skip classes and you can get help straight foward, that its more one on one and i'd be able to concentrate more. i cant sit in the same room 6 and a half hours straight with a 15 minute break, no electives, i just cant. idk but im done, and i cant only see rich for 15 minutes either. but sitting on couches could be fun, and no homework would be awesome, other than that, there's no use for it. i want a job.
ew. i just got nail polish remover in my mouth, i've been trying to call rich for like an hour and he's not answering.
i watched a terrible porn last night on one of the hbo channels, called saphire girls, it was weird. thats the weird thing i was gunna tell you rich... but you prolly wont read this. oh well... im done. i love you. i miss you. im sorry i played that song for you, but it duzint matter cuz thats over now, and things are better, i think they're the best they've ever been. i really have to pee tho. so im done. i miss you. stupid people answer your phone!
my dad just got off the phone with manda, and i heard him tell her he loves her and for some reason im so jealous, i cant remember the last time he told me that, then again she's not a screw up like i am. im the one who's an embarassment to the family, the one they have to lie about my grades to, the one that has to always wear long sleeves so the rest of the family thinks that we're perfect. we're not, so get over it, they're not either. i love my mom, she told my grandpa everything that happened, my arm, he understands, if we were a real family they'd understand too, theyd want to help if anything. thats the way i real family is. so my dad basically told me that im not going to go to college, which i still had intentions of doing. he goes, do you like hair dressing? are you interested in that? me- no not really... why?
dad- because there offering a class for it at bossis (sp?) and you can take it and then you'll be set the second you get out of highschool
diane- yah cuz you wont want to be going to college right?
me- i kinda do.
diane- you cant with your grades
me- im doing better now, i've been going to extra help, every day except when i have rock club
it went on and on, and i told my dad that i didnt think with bosis id be able to take chamber choir and hes like the fun classes aren't the important ones, dont base your ability to do well on an elective class that wont get you anywhere... last time i checked you didnt need math or history to be a hair dresser. then he was telling me how the a school would make things a lot easier for me, you cant really skip classes and you can get help straight foward, that its more one on one and i'd be able to concentrate more. i cant sit in the same room 6 and a half hours straight with a 15 minute break, no electives, i just cant. idk but im done, and i cant only see rich for 15 minutes either. but sitting on couches could be fun, and no homework would be awesome, other than that, there's no use for it. i want a job.
ew. i just got nail polish remover in my mouth, i've been trying to call rich for like an hour and he's not answering.
i watched a terrible porn last night on one of the hbo channels, called saphire girls, it was weird. thats the weird thing i was gunna tell you rich... but you prolly wont read this. oh well... im done. i love you. i miss you. im sorry i played that song for you, but it duzint matter cuz thats over now, and things are better, i think they're the best they've ever been. i really have to pee tho. so im done. i miss you. stupid people answer your phone!