i worry toooooo much
i thought last night would be bad, really bad,
but it turned out pretty good.
lately the slightest things make me freak out,
its like i've all of a sudden place so much importance on everything.
im just so scared of things getting shitty again, like before.
before when i always felt alone and i had so many people caring for me.
i used to be so good at putting my toughts into words and exposing them
but now, now i can hardly speak
each time we sit in the car its like my mind goes blank,
my toughts qucikly hide in the back of my head and were're left there sitting in silence
silence isn't bad, but when your trying to make things better, it could be a problem
but theres no problem
fuck its just me
i worry to much and i have anxiety problems
i wanna see a doctor
i wanna be fixed
but i still want to be me
it seems like i've always had so many problems
that now that there arn't any i don't know what to do
so i create them.( that dosent't sound right)
maybe this is me, maybe im just a fucking mess
and thats what makes me, me
i dunno i just wish someone had allll the answers
i wish someone would look me in the eyes and tell me whats wrong
am i selfish? is that it?
ahhh i don't know, i actually care so much about people
i try hard to please others, that i love.
i haven't had a good heart to hearrt convesation in a while
the only people that take time to have those with me are
jessica and chris.
He called me last night and we talked for hours,
like four years ago.
Chris is such a nice friend, he understand me and i him.
thanks for listening
i love people that listen even when i don't talk, it's like they just know.
but it turned out pretty good.
lately the slightest things make me freak out,
its like i've all of a sudden place so much importance on everything.
im just so scared of things getting shitty again, like before.
before when i always felt alone and i had so many people caring for me.
i used to be so good at putting my toughts into words and exposing them
but now, now i can hardly speak
each time we sit in the car its like my mind goes blank,
my toughts qucikly hide in the back of my head and were're left there sitting in silence
silence isn't bad, but when your trying to make things better, it could be a problem
but theres no problem
fuck its just me
i worry to much and i have anxiety problems
i wanna see a doctor
i wanna be fixed
but i still want to be me
it seems like i've always had so many problems
that now that there arn't any i don't know what to do
so i create them.( that dosent't sound right)
maybe this is me, maybe im just a fucking mess
and thats what makes me, me
i dunno i just wish someone had allll the answers
i wish someone would look me in the eyes and tell me whats wrong
am i selfish? is that it?
ahhh i don't know, i actually care so much about people
i try hard to please others, that i love.
i haven't had a good heart to hearrt convesation in a while
the only people that take time to have those with me are
jessica and chris.
He called me last night and we talked for hours,
like four years ago.
Chris is such a nice friend, he understand me and i him.
thanks for listening
i love people that listen even when i don't talk, it's like they just know.