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this weekend was so shitty sports-wise. ku jayhawks.. who were no. 2.. got killed, not just beat.. DESTROYED by villanova.. like 27 points i think? then the steelers. i sorta knew they wouldn't win, but my grandpa had his heart set on it & i really would've liked to see them win for him.
other news - hm, let's see. wow, my life is so boring lol
i got an a on my biology exam and pr/publicity exam. yay. good start.
and i'm on the account executive team for ad campaigns -- meaning i get to be the boss, along with 6 other people .. mm, control lol.
philip and i had a somewhat interesting conversation last night. it actually made me think. he asked if i ever thought about going back to kansas. i used my "Welllll i have two years of school left" excuse, but deep down i knew there was more to it. then, i came to the conclusion. there's way too many memories and too much of a past there for me to ever go back. i cant see myself living where i grew up, where everyday is a reminder of what i used to have and what i'll never have again. then, what about here? what about amarillo? .. honestly, i hate it here. it's not me. and texans have this attitude that if you weren't born here -- you'll never really be a texan. i just dont feel like i could ever call this home. i realized that i really don't have a "home" right now. i have somewhere that i live, obviously, but that's about it. i also told him that i won't leave here yet b/c for once - i have my life on track. i really do.. and that makes me happy. *smiles* haha.
and philip -- GOOD LUCK on the job. i know how much it means to you .. you'll do great at it and i'm hoping for the best for you.
i've also realized -- you can really be friends with your ex's. i always thought it was impossible, b/c i thought there'd always be that element of jealousy. maybe philip & i are just way cool, probably so ;)