so its 2006.
first things first. its 2006. a new year for me to start my life over. and unlike the other years, im gonna take advantage of that chance. i want all the bullshit and drama OUT of my life. it serves no purpose except causing pain. and im over it.
next, there have been things said about kenny going to dump me. this situation could work 2 different ways: either kenny honestly does want to dump me, or people are just that patheticly desperate to break us apart. do you people not have a life? do you take pleasure in my pain? honestly, kenny is the best thing thats ever happened to me. before kenny, i wuz wit scott, and all that consisted of wuz pain, cuts, and tears. he successly had ripped out my heart, torn it into pieces, threw it on the ground, stomped on it, and burned it to ashes. and then i find kenny, someone who understands me, someone who loves me, someone who i can trust. and now everyone is on the edge b/c of it. if kenny wants to dump me, thats his decision. so be it. i cant change his decision. but if not, people need to get over it! were happy. its been almost 11 months now. ive havent hurt him. i dont think ive ever been so loyal to a boy before ever in my life. and im happy. does that bother people so much? i went from emo and cutting to living a decent life. if thats wrong, then i dont kno wuts rite. i love kenny more than ive loved any one person and i cant just make that love dissapear. and the same goes for him. love cant be denied. you dont see me saying "o yeah, so and so need to break up b/c im jealous or i dont like them together or w/e". i respect peoples relationships. so why cant you have some respect for mine? so if you're one of the people whose against me and kenny being together, get over it. were gonna last whether or not you want us to.
my next issues is the people who claim to be my "friends", yet find it fun to stab me in the back. im so over that bullshit. if youre one of those type of people, dont even bother talking to me anymore! im done wit it. you people are so indecent. im not saying that im perfect, that ive never done it to someone, b/c i have. but trust me, i payed for it. i lost 2 of my best friends for an extensive period of time. and it hurt me just as much as it hurt them. but i learned from my mistakes. its not worth it anymore. another things that bugs the hell out of me is people who choose their boyfriend/girlfriend over there friends. ok, your friends will be there for you when he/she is gone. honestly, ive never screwed over a friend for kenny. ive never screwed kenny over for a friend. i dont think i ever will. but if youre one of these people, you mite as well end our friendship b/c im over this shit too. ive let it slip one too many times. its honestly pathetic! youve had a friend since 1st grade and now that she all of a sudden gets a boyfriend, shes too good for you. (you kno who you are). if you cant find time for us when youre wit him, then why should we find time for you when hes gone? but w/e, if my friendship isnt good enough for you, then theres NO way in hell im wasting my time on you. if youre one of my friends who have stayed true to me, i thank you. ♥
last but CERTAINLY not least, im DONE wit people talking shit about me! i NEVER talk shit about anyone unless they give me a reason to. lets use katrina as an example. when i first met her, i didnt like her, but i wuz still nice to her out of common courtisy. and then she has the nerve to go and say shit about me to my best friend (talk about a bad move katrina.) ok, the only thing she has against me is that im "fat" ok, i kno im over-weight. i can admit it. and im trying to change that. i dont see her trying to adjust her bitchy attitude or trying to be LESS of a slut. as a matter of fact, i think shes gotten worse. she need to learn how to shut her slut ass mouth up and get over herself. and theres honestly no point in talking shit about me b/c all it does is cause a massive conflict that you WONT get yourself out of! i mean seriously, thats one of the dumbest things you could do to me. and im NOT scared to fight. the only reason i DONT fight is b/c every girl ive suppose to fight lately has pussied out (katrina being one of them). but wut pisses me off even more than that is when people start/talk shit about my friends. like, once again, katrina did wit christina. ok, i understand that when theres a conflict between 2 people then you stay out of it b/c its none of your business, but when your friend (my best friend in this situation) is constantly harrassed to the point where she cant take it anymore, you gotta do something. (i wuz already brought into the conflict anyways.) but seriously, if you wanna start shit wit my friends, youre just asking to bring me into it. so if you already talk shit about me or plan on it, you better think twice, b/c if you do and i find out, youre gonna get your ass beat down.
so in conclusion, im done wit peoples shit. dont even try anything wit me b/c im not gonna tolerate it anymore. so i guess im gonna start writing in my lj again, so i guess watch for my posts. this one is to 2006.