idk.. im just bored...
soooo... to start this entry off, heres my schedule:
1st- english 2 w/ moore
2nd- geometry honors w/ bellon
3rd- world history w/ baeszler
4th- lunch
5th- drama 2 w/ dweck
6th- biology w/ racette
7th- intro to film and entertainment w/ dweck (its a drama class)
anyways.. today wuz warped tour.. and of course i cant go.. im so fucking pissed!! my chemical romance, senses fail, atreyu, fall out boy, hawthorne heights, avenged sevenfold, and SO many other good bands were playing to.. im depressed about it.. you have no idea.. well at least dj is getting pics of mcr for me.. but i wanted to go so bad and i told my dad and hes like "o well.. those bands suck anyways".. and im like "HOLY FUCK! its my music! not yours! im going! your not! why the hell does every band i like have to suck! non of the bands you listened to are still around! and your the one saying they are the greatest bands ever! so just SHUT UP about your gay music and STOP criticizing mine!" all he does is try to irritate me and ruin my life since he doesnt have one.. i swear one day soon ima leave and not come back! so fuck him and his pathetic little sob stories! im not putting up wit his shit much longer!!
so rite now im talking to eric and i feel so sorry for him.. im in no mood to go into details b.c ill get myself more depressed than i already am.. i felt horrible earlier b.c i made him get the impression that i dont wanna hang wit him and its the exact opposite.. i wanna see him but its just my family and kenny are on my back about him and its just so hard.. i hate it.. and of course i have all kennys friends calling me and making things harder than they already are.. its fucking pathetic.. its done and over wit, i cant change wut i did, and people just need to get over the fact that me and eric ARE friends and we ARE gonna hang out and no one can change that.. kenny said hes ok wit it, so why the hell are his friends still babbling on about it???
idk.. lifes just been so challenging for me lately.. and during summer of all times.. the time when im suppose to be able to have fun and have no worries.. but of course not, i get the exact opposite.. lucky me.. wow, things have been crazy.. i hope they calm down for school b.c i dont need all this shit on my back then b.c i gotta concentrate on my classes this year b.c i fucked up last year.., and i think im actually looking forward to school so i can get out of my house and so i can see my friends.. just being around them makes me feel so much better and theres just so much love and comfort between us... i cant wait guys.. ♥
and now to top it off, i got my brother constantly starting shit wit my mom.. and no one, i repeat NO ONE talks to my mother that way.... i swear, one more time and his pretty little face is fucked b.c im sick of it.. he needs to learn some respect sooner or later and i guess its looking like ima be the one to bring it to him..
well tonite it looks as if theres no movies for me.. o well, im in no mood to go deal wit my brother anyways.. i guess tomorrow im shopping for clothes at the ellenton mall and i guess im getting my nails done again too.. and eric wants to hang out wit me.. and kenny wants to go to the movies.. and i have any easy solution.. we can all go to the movies tomorrow nite together.. but it wont work.. of course not, theres my luck again.. well w.e.. watch none of it happen... surprse surprise... w.e