Life
Life seems to be at a stand still
i need some motion
or at least someone to hold
I can't stand being at point
where you don't know what needs to come next
I don't know what my next step is
i am thinking of moving to a far away place
put i am too scared to do anything like that
but for some reason i feel that it is needed to get me out of this rut
all work and some play
but no play with anyone that i feel truly cares
i hate that no one i know truly cares if i live or die
i'm not a drug addict or anything
aren't normal people supposed to have people who love them
i wonder if i stopped answering my home
if anyone would come by to see if i was ok
or just see how long it took them to stop calling
how long would it be a week, 2 weeks, maybe a month at most
the one person who i thought cared even in his sick little way
just up and left
left without a goodbye
he has someone new
someone that could never love him like i could
why is it that people that are loved never understand
and always leave hurting you so much you can't even start to describe it
i don't understand people
why is it in human nature to hurt everyone that wants to be close to them
all i ever wanted from him was for in to let me in
and let me love him
even if he wasn't perfect and could never be
he was perfect to me in his beautifully odd way
i thought he was finally letting me in
then he disappears without a trace
i could find him if i wanted
but i don't think that would help anything
it would just push him even farther away
i know he will come back to me again
never stays away too long
he can't help but come back my loving arms
he knows i am the only one that truly ever cared for him
i wonder if he thinks of me when he is with his new girl
i wish i could understand life just enough to get it right
just for once
all i want is love
i need some motion
or at least someone to hold
I can't stand being at point
where you don't know what needs to come next
I don't know what my next step is
i am thinking of moving to a far away place
put i am too scared to do anything like that
but for some reason i feel that it is needed to get me out of this rut
all work and some play
but no play with anyone that i feel truly cares
i hate that no one i know truly cares if i live or die
i'm not a drug addict or anything
aren't normal people supposed to have people who love them
i wonder if i stopped answering my home
if anyone would come by to see if i was ok
or just see how long it took them to stop calling
how long would it be a week, 2 weeks, maybe a month at most
the one person who i thought cared even in his sick little way
just up and left
left without a goodbye
he has someone new
someone that could never love him like i could
why is it that people that are loved never understand
and always leave hurting you so much you can't even start to describe it
i don't understand people
why is it in human nature to hurt everyone that wants to be close to them
all i ever wanted from him was for in to let me in
and let me love him
even if he wasn't perfect and could never be
he was perfect to me in his beautifully odd way
i thought he was finally letting me in
then he disappears without a trace
i could find him if i wanted
but i don't think that would help anything
it would just push him even farther away
i know he will come back to me again
never stays away too long
he can't help but come back my loving arms
he knows i am the only one that truly ever cared for him
i wonder if he thinks of me when he is with his new girl
i wish i could understand life just enough to get it right
just for once
all i want is love