terribly sorry
well ... its safe to say that i never ever update this thing anymore. i guess its just too much for me.. yeah i know lazy fuck. wuhtever.. i guess during the school year this will just be a kind of update every now and then whereas in the summer i update like ... twice a day. You nosy kids will just have to learn to deal without my private life. Okay, so today was thanksgiving. And let me just tell you, it sucked. It's not even like anything major happened to upset me. The holidays in general just depress me i guess. i hate it. i fight with liek everyone and i get wicked pissed off and i usually end up crying for some stupid reason. blahhh... so i slept at minori's last night and we woke uup early and went to the thanksgiving game, the last game at manning bowl. And yes we won fortunately. but then after Meggan dropped me off my mom told me we werent going to my grandmas till like 2:30. So i was really hungry and impatient. Fell asleep for like 2 hours, and woke up in a really grumpy mood. Didn't eat till like 5.. sat around... i duno i just can't really explain why i felt so upset today. I hate holidays because i have to make like a million trips to everywhere. and if i dont visit one parent.. thats it im the guiltiest worst kid in the world. and then i hear shit from both of them. just wonderful. The best thing that happened to me today was my grandma telling me her and my grandpa were guna take me shopping for my xmas present tomorrow. which thank god is going to be a brand new car. So that made me a little happier. They are guna make the payments till i graduate... but hopefully i will get a good job soon and i can help them out.. and feel a little better about getting the car. so yeah.. i can pick any car i want at a reasonable price. after that tomorrow i get to spend the whole day cleaning and packing up the rest of my room/house. then i will probably have to go with my mom or chris to the new house and bring boxes up. I HATE MOVING. seriously... if she moves me one more time before i graduate.. i really wont go with her. its off to my grandma's for me. the amazing thing is how she complains about it to me now. like it was my suggestion to move and it was this big pain for her. yeah.. wuhtever, dumbness i tell ya. i need to schedule road lessons damnit and set up an appointment for my road test. its guna be snowing soon. wonderful. i dont even no why i make these dumb retarded melodramatic updates. pay no attention to me.. it is rambling and venting. so go ahead roll your eyes and yell drama queen... cuz i cant hear you <3