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I am in a very serious mood right now.
i probally shouldnt write some things ..but personally,i dont care. today i am having a heart to heart talk with my dear journal. so Hi mr.journal...life sucks. yea. that pretty much covers it all. I wish i was going to The Wegman's FORMAL Christmas party @ Genettis. I think you need a date tho. I could have went but i totally forgot we had to sign up and all :( Itd be so fun..everyone wears a formal dress and gets their hair done.That'd of been fun. But yea instead i am going to the mall.. Last night i slept at Kate Rogers,party.I watched some irish movie raebird made us watch..but other than kate's party,last night sucked. Its great when love is perfect and everything is going your way..but its the worst feeling in the world when u its not so great or better yet.rejected from it.(dont leave comments..I will flip the shit out)Its hard 2 get over someone you love. I used to think love was for the biggest saps out there. I'd laugh when someone said." ilove him!" i'd be like eww wtf. die. wasnt i the biggest hyprocrit. I dont know whether to sit here and cry about stuff and be a little bitch about it. whether to Move on with life and just accept it and turn back to the old me,the person who thinks "love is just for saps" or whether to hold on keep trying and make an improvement.or just..finmd someone else.The only good thing i concluded, was its obvious things dont last forever.But it was great when it happened. It was one hell of an experience.but yet learned dont set your heart on people.. dont act that your certain things will always be great with someone..because things change so damn fast. I always made my boyfriend my motivation in life. And that was because i never meet anyone so great.I was completely blown away by what an amazing person he was. slowly but surely i fell for him hard. real hard. It was a feeling i never thought existed.I made fun of people for loving one another..when i am the biggest sap in the world. i never trusted guys until i meet Ryan. when i meet him i saw,wow theres atleast 1 amazing guy out there.I need a different motivation in life..that motivation is gone..so what do i actually put first? Maybe its time i put my life first. i know for sure i am not near ready for a boyfriend. I am up for dating around though. maybe I see what other guys are actually out there.
This is a good Christmas song,itd be a great Christmas list.
"heres my life long list
my grown up Christmas list
no more lives torn apart
and wars will never start
and time would heal all hearts
and everyone would have a friend
and right would always win
and love would never end
this is my grown up Christmas list."
i probally shouldnt write some things ..but personally,i dont care. today i am having a heart to heart talk with my dear journal. so Hi mr.journal...life sucks. yea. that pretty much covers it all. I wish i was going to The Wegman's FORMAL Christmas party @ Genettis. I think you need a date tho. I could have went but i totally forgot we had to sign up and all :( Itd be so fun..everyone wears a formal dress and gets their hair done.That'd of been fun. But yea instead i am going to the mall.. Last night i slept at Kate Rogers,party.I watched some irish movie raebird made us watch..but other than kate's party,last night sucked. Its great when love is perfect and everything is going your way..but its the worst feeling in the world when u its not so great or better yet.rejected from it.(dont leave comments..I will flip the shit out)Its hard 2 get over someone you love. I used to think love was for the biggest saps out there. I'd laugh when someone said." ilove him!" i'd be like eww wtf. die. wasnt i the biggest hyprocrit. I dont know whether to sit here and cry about stuff and be a little bitch about it. whether to Move on with life and just accept it and turn back to the old me,the person who thinks "love is just for saps" or whether to hold on keep trying and make an improvement.or just..finmd someone else.The only good thing i concluded, was its obvious things dont last forever.But it was great when it happened. It was one hell of an experience.but yet learned dont set your heart on people.. dont act that your certain things will always be great with someone..because things change so damn fast. I always made my boyfriend my motivation in life. And that was because i never meet anyone so great.I was completely blown away by what an amazing person he was. slowly but surely i fell for him hard. real hard. It was a feeling i never thought existed.I made fun of people for loving one another..when i am the biggest sap in the world. i never trusted guys until i meet Ryan. when i meet him i saw,wow theres atleast 1 amazing guy out there.I need a different motivation in life..that motivation is gone..so what do i actually put first? Maybe its time i put my life first. i know for sure i am not near ready for a boyfriend. I am up for dating around though. maybe I see what other guys are actually out there.
This is a good Christmas song,itd be a great Christmas list.
"heres my life long list
my grown up Christmas list
no more lives torn apart
and wars will never start
and time would heal all hearts
and everyone would have a friend
and right would always win
and love would never end
this is my grown up Christmas list."