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So I saw Cary, Ash, and Cary's little brother last night. We all hung out that was cool. Met three russian girls that my cousin had over. That was just interesting. Saw a new side of Cary that he didn't want me to see butttttt I saw it and I still love him of course and honestly, don't think anything different except my love for him got stronger. So we all went to Taco Bell at like 11 at night and Cary dropped his food on my hand and I made him eat it off. =) That was definately a first with that. He's pretty much yeah awesome. We took him home then Ash and I stayed up till 3:30 playin Grand Theft Auto on teh xbox. Much funnnn. Why? Because I was so happy and it seemed like I was high. I just get random highs on life man and it rocks. lol. Sooo today or technically yesterday(Monday) I did nothing except play xbox with Ashley. She left I didnt see or talk to Cary really. And I was home alone for hours on end. Its weird to me that Cary hasn't called. I've talked to everyone tonight except him. And that's just amazing. I talked to Allie and her boyfriend for a long time and we talked about sexual things and it was great. But overall I've been in an emo mood tonight and I don't like it but I'll get over it.
**EDIT**
I was thinking about it, and I realized every time I wake up I lay in bed for an extra hour and just think about things. Half of what I think about I forget, but when I first wake up, I can honestly say I think about Cary. I think about what it's going to be like to actually have him in a bed with me when I wake up. It's just going to be amazing. I want it. And I want it badddddd. I love him to where it's bad for my health. I swear it. It's bad when everything a person does effects you. But it's worth it at the same time.
**EDIT AGAIN****
This song flat out reminds me of Cary. I heard it and was like homg Caryyyyy<3 So I'm pretty much posting the lyrics and the song is on my myspace now. =)
The years have gone by fast,
oh how we have grown
The times weren't always easy,
but hearts and minds revive
now thoughts of you consume me,
and I wanted you to know
You're the brightest shining star I've ever seen
Oh how blessed we are,
to share in everything
Life before was cold, cold and empty
Everytime I see your face, I'm reminded of
What It means to be alive.
The miles will pull apart,
and I will not lose sight
Of the gift, that I've been handed
Been blessed so much but why?
I feel so undeserving,
but I wanted you to know
You're the brightest shining star I've ever seen
Oh how blessed we are,
to share in everything
Life before was cold, cold and empty
Everytime I see your face, I'm reminded of
What It means to be alive.
All for you, you make me wanna try
All for you, I'll give you everything
All for you, you make me wanna try
All for you, I'll honor you forever
Like the sun that never sets
The brightest shining star, you're the brightest
shining star I've ever seen.
Oh how blessed we are,
to share in everything
Life before was cold, cold and empty
Everytime I see your face, I'm reminded of
What It means to be alive.
**EDIT**
I was thinking about it, and I realized every time I wake up I lay in bed for an extra hour and just think about things. Half of what I think about I forget, but when I first wake up, I can honestly say I think about Cary. I think about what it's going to be like to actually have him in a bed with me when I wake up. It's just going to be amazing. I want it. And I want it badddddd. I love him to where it's bad for my health. I swear it. It's bad when everything a person does effects you. But it's worth it at the same time.
**EDIT AGAIN****
This song flat out reminds me of Cary. I heard it and was like homg Caryyyyy<3 So I'm pretty much posting the lyrics and the song is on my myspace now. =)
The years have gone by fast,
oh how we have grown
The times weren't always easy,
but hearts and minds revive
now thoughts of you consume me,
and I wanted you to know
You're the brightest shining star I've ever seen
Oh how blessed we are,
to share in everything
Life before was cold, cold and empty
Everytime I see your face, I'm reminded of
What It means to be alive.
The miles will pull apart,
and I will not lose sight
Of the gift, that I've been handed
Been blessed so much but why?
I feel so undeserving,
but I wanted you to know
You're the brightest shining star I've ever seen
Oh how blessed we are,
to share in everything
Life before was cold, cold and empty
Everytime I see your face, I'm reminded of
What It means to be alive.
All for you, you make me wanna try
All for you, I'll give you everything
All for you, you make me wanna try
All for you, I'll honor you forever
Like the sun that never sets
The brightest shining star, you're the brightest
shining star I've ever seen.
Oh how blessed we are,
to share in everything
Life before was cold, cold and empty
Everytime I see your face, I'm reminded of
What It means to be alive.