ill be convulsing for days in this hole

[l0nely_dreams]

i haven't slept in days.

i think its been longer since i've eaten.
i make myself sometimes but i'm not even hungry.

i have no energy.

i just want to sleep.

i just want to fall away from the world,
(as if it would notice!)

i just want to be left alone.
but i want to be comforted.
or listened to.
(neither of which i have acquired)

its not depression.
its a lack of self expression.
psychosomatic!!
if i could only say how my heart felt. & my mind thought.
if i could say that sometimes i feel like i'm dying inside
then maybe i could stop dying outside

i gotta get outta this hole.
(i'm being covered in dirt
& buried alive!!)

i want to live like you do