Crash and burn
For the first time, I'm worried about my future here in Cleveland. I'm looking for an apartment and looking for job opportunities and all...but I feel like I'm one of those zoo animals that you feel badly for as they repeatedly walk around a cage that's too small while people gawk.
I think what I'm doing is making myself feel sick about everything that I have to take care of - this means money, sadly enough. I haven't been sleeping too well over the last week due to all the anxiety I've been feelings. I think I'm making things worse than they are ( I tend to do that) but I'm beginning to feel like I'm unraveling bit by bit.
I knew this would be a rough time for me...but I never have felt like so many things were in jeopardy at all at once. I've been been bitten in the ass by reality...and I'm not sure how to handle so many things in the air all at the same time.
It's been a while, but I think I'm actually kind of scared now...
I think what I'm doing is making myself feel sick about everything that I have to take care of - this means money, sadly enough. I haven't been sleeping too well over the last week due to all the anxiety I've been feelings. I think I'm making things worse than they are ( I tend to do that) but I'm beginning to feel like I'm unraveling bit by bit.
I knew this would be a rough time for me...but I never have felt like so many things were in jeopardy at all at once. I've been been bitten in the ass by reality...and I'm not sure how to handle so many things in the air all at the same time.
It's been a while, but I think I'm actually kind of scared now...