Hard to say, I love you (part 5)
Title: Hard to say, I love you
Pairing: Yewon ( Yesung + Siwon)
Gender: Drama, School life, Romance
Chapter: 5/?
Rating: PG-13 ( I guess )
Summary: Siwon like Yesung, but Yesung is scared from him..., What's gonna happen ?
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A/N: Hi before you read I want to point out something, this chapter have a lot of Yesung thoughts (you know talking in his head) I made those lines with a different colors so you won't get confused Okay,
Know you can read, please enjoy ^ ^
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Friday night…….
" WHAT…"YOU'LL COME" ?"
Yesung shouted as he was furiously throwing his clothes all over his room.
" What was he confident of ? Augh…it makes me so mad!" he looked around and noticed what he was doing " Even so… I'm more mad at myself for deciding on what to wear…" he thought it feels wrong going out with him, but he started convincing himself that he's going Not because of Siwon but because he wants to buy some stuff,
" that's right! I'm just doing my duty!"
As he went to the bus station to meet Siwon he kept telling himself that he's doing this because of school over and over until he saw Siwon, when he reached him, Siwon just stood there surprised staring at Yesung not saying anything.
" you said we needed to buy some things…. I couldn't have just left you alone to do all that, so lets buy them quickly and go home" Yesung said while he blushed a little because of Siwon stare.
Siwon lost his surprised look and replace it with a huge smirk " See! You came after all, and you look pretty dressed up for such a small thing" he giggled "and you look so cute"
" Stop spouting nonsense! Hurry up, where are we going first?" Yesung annoyingly said to him.
" all right, all right" Siwon said to him as they went to a near by skating rink, " It gets crowded on holidays" he said when he noticed the amount of people there.
"WHAT….WHATS UP WITH THIS? I thought we're going shopping, so how did we end up at a skating rink?" Yesung shouted.
" that was just an excuse to get you to come here, do I need to explain myself?" Siwon told him.
" !? " Yesung just stood there confused.
" Come on, tell me you shoe size, so I can rent some skated for you" Siwon gave him a smile.
Yesung looked at Siwon smile, and the next thing he found him self wearing skates trembling and holding on to the rink railing " Why… why do I have to do this?" .
" what are you doing? That's not how you skate!" Siwon said when he noticed Yesung.
" WHAT CAN I DO? I haven't skated since elementary school" Yesung said angrily.
Siwon sighed " It can't be helped! Come over here! I'll lend you a hand"
Yesung gave him a death glare then turned his head.
" what….?"
" I don't want to! That's what you're aiming for, right? I won't be tricked by you!" Yesung clearly said " you pervert".
" Is that so? Well, then I don’t think I'd help you." Siwon angrily walked a little far from Yesung, but he stopped and turned a round and held his hand out " Hey…"
"WHAT…." Yesung turned and looked at Siwon.
"Practice makes perfect, so come on and try skating till here" Siwon said then he gave an evil smirk " That's if you Can".
Yesung got pissed " I"LL Do just fine just you watch"
Yesung moved from the railing and started moving his legs slowly still wobbling staring at the ground, he lifted his head and saw Siwon giving him a sweet smile then he realized that his hand and legs where moving to Siwon with out him noticing like his body was a doll. He blushed as he watched Siwon but then he lost his balance and fell really hard on his hip.
" it….hurts…. that was so painful!" Yesung let out.
Siwon stormed to him and looked worried " hey are you okay?"
" ha ha ha, I haven't fallen this badly for so long." Yesung blushed and let out a small giggle.
" YOU IDIOT!! You should be more careful, what if you injured you self really badly" Siwon said angrily.
" What? Who asked you to bring me here? Why should I have to take you scolding" Yesung said back to Siwon.
"Huh? I'TS UP TO YOU THEN!" Siwon shouted then left Yesung.
" wait!" Yesung tried but Siwon was far, he looked down " how did it come to this…..I'm the one who's embarrassed here! So why are yo….." Yesung slipped again. But before he fell someone held him " please don’t fall a second time, okay!" Yesung lifted his head and saw Siwon.
" I shouldn't have brought you to the skating rink, sorry" Siwon head sank down " actually I just wanted to hold your hand, but not only did I fail to do that, I almost made you get hurt, and I made you feel embarrassed and I even quarreled with you, I did nothing right, I couldn't make you happy, sorry"
Yesung let out a chuckle " what's up with you? You sound like an idiot" then he laughed.
Siwon lifted his head and looked really surprised, Yesung was laughing, he was actually laughing and smiling for him. Siwon felt really happy and smiled back.
" let me hold your hand, okay"
" no way "
" please?"
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Sunday morning….
" I…. I'm not even going out with Siwon!" Yesung let out to his friends who were staring at him.
Sungmin, Eunhyuk and Donghae looked at him " Yesung are you saying that for real….?"
" of course! Siwon is just…"
" HOLD IT RIGHT THERE"
Yesung turned and saw Siwon angrily looking at him
" after all you did to lead me on, isn't that a little harsh?" Siwon said
" what things? What!! You're the one who's making all the assumption!" Yesung shouted.
"but last Friday after school we were holding hands on the way home! You didn't even let go at the lockers! And last Saturday when we went ice skating, you let me hold your hand there too!" Siwon shouted back.
"Eh! Hold on! Stop joking around! That was just for the heck of it! It's so annoying if you're just making assumptions based on those things!!" Yesung shouted back.
" SO YOU'RE THE TYPE WHO HOLDS HAND WITH A GUY FOR THE HECK OF IT!?" Siwon shouted angrily.
" ANYHOW, I don't like you one bit!! I can never imagine my self going out with you!!" Yesung let out clearly.
Siwon got shocked then turned around and started to mumble out " I waged war too lightly…….or I have underestimated my opponent……..I should have known this was going to happen with you."
Eunhyuk turned to Yesung and said "honestly! Yesung you're too cruel! You basically just raised and killed Siwon!"
"If you don't have the intention of dating him, then hurry up and dump him so we can date him" Donghae said.
" Hey, hold on guy's, stop giving him ideas that'll give me bad luck! To me, if it's not with Yesung it would be absolutely meaningless" Siwon said folding his hand in front of him then he turned to Yesung and gave him a serious look " Yesung did you really hold hands with me for the heck of it? I wanted to get close, to not be separated from you, to touch you, that's why I held your hand, was it, different for you? These reasons…… was I the only one with these reasons?" Siwon said looking at Yesung eyes.
Yesung froze for I minute then " ……Even …if…...even if you ask me…. I HAVE ABSOULITLY NO CLUE" Yesung shouted then ran out the class room.
Siwon just stood there with a blank look on his face as if he was dead, Sungmin looked at him with pity " I think I'm…..really starting to feel sorry for Siwon…….I wonder what's going on inside Yesung head….?" He said restlessly, as he thought of his friend.
Yesung kept running and thinking " …I don't know….I don't even know myself! But I mean there's no way I would like Siwon! That's completely impossible, that's why right now, there has to be something wrong with me……."
In the meeting room….
Yesung was sitting next to Siwon, who was resting his chin on his hand looking down at his table, Yesung turned a little to look at him then he remembered Siwon words "To me, if it's not with Yesung it would be absolutely meaningless" then he kept thinking " why is that…..why does this person….go to such lengths to stick to me….I'm completely …….lost……." Yesung then placed his hand on his brow and let out a sigh.
Siwon turned to him "is it because I am sitting next to you?"
Yesung looked confused.
" you sighed just now" Siwon then move his chair a little and looked the other way.
Yesung looked at him then and started talking in his head "No…..that's not it! Why did you even think that…..how can I let him know? How can I….close this distance between us…? How can I……my god….what I am doing…"
Yesung then reached his hand and placed it at the back of Siwon hand, which was resting next to him on the chair.
" I hate this! What am I supposed to do?"
Siwon was surprised so he turned to look at Yesung who had his face down and was blushing.
" please Siwon don't look at me, please don't look at me, I'm so embarrassed, I could die…." Yesung thoughts were cut when Siwon suddenly moved his hand from under him, but then Siwon turned his hand and locked their hands together. Yesung thought he got a little dizzy maybe because he started to feel for Siwon.
Yesung was holding his bag in one hand and the other held Siwon hand as they walked to his house, and while walking Siwon said " Yesung…..punch me"
" eh??" Yesung turned to him confused.
" just do It! Don't hold back!" Siwon firmly said.
" then…..as you wish" Yesung gathered all his strength and slammed Siwon face with his bag.
" Yesung…" Siwon gritted his teethes and said angrily " WHO TOLD YOU USE YOUR BOOKBAG?"
" what? You’re the one that wanted me to hit you all of the sudden! And besides…...you've been holding my other hand and…. I couldn't let go….." Yesung shyly said.
" Yesung I told you to hit me…..… I didn't want you to hit me again, so I wanted to hit me first"
Yesung looked confused.
" can I kiss you….?" Siwon let out.
Yesung shuddered a little and blushed.
" I suddenly wanted to do something that'll make you want to hit me again" Siwon looked at Yesung eyes " if you really don't want to just say so….." Siwon then approached Yesung who had the wall at his back.
" what should I do? How come…...I can't say no……even if it'll be a lie?.....don't look at me with such loving eyes…" Yesung blushed and lowered his head.
One of Siwon hands held Yesung hand and the other held a strand of Yesung's hair and kissed it softly.
" Don't look at me with such loving eyes… because I bet I haven’t done a single thing…….that would make you love me..…..I've done nothing but hurt you..… so why do you keep loving me after that?" Yesung kept thinking as he felt Siwon kissing his hair.
" hey look up, I want to have a better look….at your face" Siwon said softly.
" no stop… it's so embarrassing!" Yesung said as he kept looking down blushing.
" don't worry, your are defiantly cute!" Siwon said with a smile.
Yesung lifted his head and looked at Siwon eyes he felt mesmerized " how he looks intensely into my eyes…….how he softly touches me….… how his hands shakes a little…….how he calls my name……..how he smells…..…even the air that surround him………I like it all " Yesung closed his eyes and a tears started running his blushed cheek.
Siwon looked warmly at him " you're crying……why….?"
" I don’t know…… I can't stop the tears" Yesung looked down covering his face.
" Yesung…..hey…..look at me" Siwon said then leaned and kissed Yesung lips softly, then he pressed a little when he felt Yesung kiss him back, the kiss was soft and long, when they parted, Yesung opened his eye's and was a little surprised when he saw tears flowing from Siwon eyes.
" Si….. hey…..siwo…."
Siwon just pulled Yesung and hugged him tightly in his arm not saying anything just happily thinking " at last…..at last your….. you're mine"
To Be Continued ……
A/N: Hope you liked it, so what you think, so how was the kissing scene ,I know I fail at it, it's my first time writing so go easy on me okay ^ ^
p
Pairing: Yewon ( Yesung + Siwon)
Gender: Drama, School life, Romance
Chapter: 5/?
Rating: PG-13 ( I guess )
Summary: Siwon like Yesung, but Yesung is scared from him..., What's gonna happen ?
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A/N: Hi before you read I want to point out something, this chapter have a lot of Yesung thoughts (you know talking in his head) I made those lines with a different colors so you won't get confused Okay,
Know you can read, please enjoy ^ ^
……………………………………………………………….
Friday night…….
" WHAT…"YOU'LL COME" ?"
Yesung shouted as he was furiously throwing his clothes all over his room.
" What was he confident of ? Augh…it makes me so mad!" he looked around and noticed what he was doing " Even so… I'm more mad at myself for deciding on what to wear…" he thought it feels wrong going out with him, but he started convincing himself that he's going Not because of Siwon but because he wants to buy some stuff,
" that's right! I'm just doing my duty!"
As he went to the bus station to meet Siwon he kept telling himself that he's doing this because of school over and over until he saw Siwon, when he reached him, Siwon just stood there surprised staring at Yesung not saying anything.
" you said we needed to buy some things…. I couldn't have just left you alone to do all that, so lets buy them quickly and go home" Yesung said while he blushed a little because of Siwon stare.
Siwon lost his surprised look and replace it with a huge smirk " See! You came after all, and you look pretty dressed up for such a small thing" he giggled "and you look so cute"
" Stop spouting nonsense! Hurry up, where are we going first?" Yesung annoyingly said to him.
" all right, all right" Siwon said to him as they went to a near by skating rink, " It gets crowded on holidays" he said when he noticed the amount of people there.
"WHAT….WHATS UP WITH THIS? I thought we're going shopping, so how did we end up at a skating rink?" Yesung shouted.
" that was just an excuse to get you to come here, do I need to explain myself?" Siwon told him.
" !? " Yesung just stood there confused.
" Come on, tell me you shoe size, so I can rent some skated for you" Siwon gave him a smile.
Yesung looked at Siwon smile, and the next thing he found him self wearing skates trembling and holding on to the rink railing " Why… why do I have to do this?" .
" what are you doing? That's not how you skate!" Siwon said when he noticed Yesung.
" WHAT CAN I DO? I haven't skated since elementary school" Yesung said angrily.
Siwon sighed " It can't be helped! Come over here! I'll lend you a hand"
Yesung gave him a death glare then turned his head.
" what….?"
" I don't want to! That's what you're aiming for, right? I won't be tricked by you!" Yesung clearly said " you pervert".
" Is that so? Well, then I don’t think I'd help you." Siwon angrily walked a little far from Yesung, but he stopped and turned a round and held his hand out " Hey…"
"WHAT…." Yesung turned and looked at Siwon.
"Practice makes perfect, so come on and try skating till here" Siwon said then he gave an evil smirk " That's if you Can".
Yesung got pissed " I"LL Do just fine just you watch"
Yesung moved from the railing and started moving his legs slowly still wobbling staring at the ground, he lifted his head and saw Siwon giving him a sweet smile then he realized that his hand and legs where moving to Siwon with out him noticing like his body was a doll. He blushed as he watched Siwon but then he lost his balance and fell really hard on his hip.
" it….hurts…. that was so painful!" Yesung let out.
Siwon stormed to him and looked worried " hey are you okay?"
" ha ha ha, I haven't fallen this badly for so long." Yesung blushed and let out a small giggle.
" YOU IDIOT!! You should be more careful, what if you injured you self really badly" Siwon said angrily.
" What? Who asked you to bring me here? Why should I have to take you scolding" Yesung said back to Siwon.
"Huh? I'TS UP TO YOU THEN!" Siwon shouted then left Yesung.
" wait!" Yesung tried but Siwon was far, he looked down " how did it come to this…..I'm the one who's embarrassed here! So why are yo….." Yesung slipped again. But before he fell someone held him " please don’t fall a second time, okay!" Yesung lifted his head and saw Siwon.
" I shouldn't have brought you to the skating rink, sorry" Siwon head sank down " actually I just wanted to hold your hand, but not only did I fail to do that, I almost made you get hurt, and I made you feel embarrassed and I even quarreled with you, I did nothing right, I couldn't make you happy, sorry"
Yesung let out a chuckle " what's up with you? You sound like an idiot" then he laughed.
Siwon lifted his head and looked really surprised, Yesung was laughing, he was actually laughing and smiling for him. Siwon felt really happy and smiled back.
" let me hold your hand, okay"
" no way "
" please?"
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Sunday morning….
" I…. I'm not even going out with Siwon!" Yesung let out to his friends who were staring at him.
Sungmin, Eunhyuk and Donghae looked at him " Yesung are you saying that for real….?"
" of course! Siwon is just…"
" HOLD IT RIGHT THERE"
Yesung turned and saw Siwon angrily looking at him
" after all you did to lead me on, isn't that a little harsh?" Siwon said
" what things? What!! You're the one who's making all the assumption!" Yesung shouted.
"but last Friday after school we were holding hands on the way home! You didn't even let go at the lockers! And last Saturday when we went ice skating, you let me hold your hand there too!" Siwon shouted back.
"Eh! Hold on! Stop joking around! That was just for the heck of it! It's so annoying if you're just making assumptions based on those things!!" Yesung shouted back.
" SO YOU'RE THE TYPE WHO HOLDS HAND WITH A GUY FOR THE HECK OF IT!?" Siwon shouted angrily.
" ANYHOW, I don't like you one bit!! I can never imagine my self going out with you!!" Yesung let out clearly.
Siwon got shocked then turned around and started to mumble out " I waged war too lightly…….or I have underestimated my opponent……..I should have known this was going to happen with you."
Eunhyuk turned to Yesung and said "honestly! Yesung you're too cruel! You basically just raised and killed Siwon!"
"If you don't have the intention of dating him, then hurry up and dump him so we can date him" Donghae said.
" Hey, hold on guy's, stop giving him ideas that'll give me bad luck! To me, if it's not with Yesung it would be absolutely meaningless" Siwon said folding his hand in front of him then he turned to Yesung and gave him a serious look " Yesung did you really hold hands with me for the heck of it? I wanted to get close, to not be separated from you, to touch you, that's why I held your hand, was it, different for you? These reasons…… was I the only one with these reasons?" Siwon said looking at Yesung eyes.
Yesung froze for I minute then " ……Even …if…...even if you ask me…. I HAVE ABSOULITLY NO CLUE" Yesung shouted then ran out the class room.
Siwon just stood there with a blank look on his face as if he was dead, Sungmin looked at him with pity " I think I'm…..really starting to feel sorry for Siwon…….I wonder what's going on inside Yesung head….?" He said restlessly, as he thought of his friend.
Yesung kept running and thinking " …I don't know….I don't even know myself! But I mean there's no way I would like Siwon! That's completely impossible, that's why right now, there has to be something wrong with me……."
In the meeting room….
Yesung was sitting next to Siwon, who was resting his chin on his hand looking down at his table, Yesung turned a little to look at him then he remembered Siwon words "To me, if it's not with Yesung it would be absolutely meaningless" then he kept thinking " why is that…..why does this person….go to such lengths to stick to me….I'm completely …….lost……." Yesung then placed his hand on his brow and let out a sigh.
Siwon turned to him "is it because I am sitting next to you?"
Yesung looked confused.
" you sighed just now" Siwon then move his chair a little and looked the other way.
Yesung looked at him then and started talking in his head "No…..that's not it! Why did you even think that…..how can I let him know? How can I….close this distance between us…? How can I……my god….what I am doing…"
Yesung then reached his hand and placed it at the back of Siwon hand, which was resting next to him on the chair.
" I hate this! What am I supposed to do?"
Siwon was surprised so he turned to look at Yesung who had his face down and was blushing.
" please Siwon don't look at me, please don't look at me, I'm so embarrassed, I could die…." Yesung thoughts were cut when Siwon suddenly moved his hand from under him, but then Siwon turned his hand and locked their hands together. Yesung thought he got a little dizzy maybe because he started to feel for Siwon.
Yesung was holding his bag in one hand and the other held Siwon hand as they walked to his house, and while walking Siwon said " Yesung…..punch me"
" eh??" Yesung turned to him confused.
" just do It! Don't hold back!" Siwon firmly said.
" then…..as you wish" Yesung gathered all his strength and slammed Siwon face with his bag.
" Yesung…" Siwon gritted his teethes and said angrily " WHO TOLD YOU USE YOUR BOOKBAG?"
" what? You’re the one that wanted me to hit you all of the sudden! And besides…...you've been holding my other hand and…. I couldn't let go….." Yesung shyly said.
" Yesung I told you to hit me…..… I didn't want you to hit me again, so I wanted to hit me first"
Yesung looked confused.
" can I kiss you….?" Siwon let out.
Yesung shuddered a little and blushed.
" I suddenly wanted to do something that'll make you want to hit me again" Siwon looked at Yesung eyes " if you really don't want to just say so….." Siwon then approached Yesung who had the wall at his back.
" what should I do? How come…...I can't say no……even if it'll be a lie?.....don't look at me with such loving eyes…" Yesung blushed and lowered his head.
One of Siwon hands held Yesung hand and the other held a strand of Yesung's hair and kissed it softly.
" Don't look at me with such loving eyes… because I bet I haven’t done a single thing…….that would make you love me..…..I've done nothing but hurt you..… so why do you keep loving me after that?" Yesung kept thinking as he felt Siwon kissing his hair.
" hey look up, I want to have a better look….at your face" Siwon said softly.
" no stop… it's so embarrassing!" Yesung said as he kept looking down blushing.
" don't worry, your are defiantly cute!" Siwon said with a smile.
Yesung lifted his head and looked at Siwon eyes he felt mesmerized " how he looks intensely into my eyes…….how he softly touches me….… how his hands shakes a little…….how he calls my name……..how he smells…..…even the air that surround him………I like it all " Yesung closed his eyes and a tears started running his blushed cheek.
Siwon looked warmly at him " you're crying……why….?"
" I don’t know…… I can't stop the tears" Yesung looked down covering his face.
" Yesung…..hey…..look at me" Siwon said then leaned and kissed Yesung lips softly, then he pressed a little when he felt Yesung kiss him back, the kiss was soft and long, when they parted, Yesung opened his eye's and was a little surprised when he saw tears flowing from Siwon eyes.
" Si….. hey…..siwo…."
Siwon just pulled Yesung and hugged him tightly in his arm not saying anything just happily thinking " at last…..at last your….. you're mine"
To Be Continued ……
A/N: Hope you liked it, so what you think, so how was the kissing scene ,I know I fail at it, it's my first time writing so go easy on me okay ^ ^
p