Hard to say, I love you chapter 2
Title: Hard to say, I love you
Pairing: Yewon ( Yesung + Siwon)
Gender: Drama, School life, Romance
Chapter: 2/?
Rating: PG-13 ( I guess, will go up soon)
Summary: Siwon like Yesung, but Yesung is scared from him..., What's gonna happen ?
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" Because I love you"
Yesung was looking at Siwon with shocking eyes " To…. To say that….so suddenly…I DON’T UNDERSTAND WHY….!" He stood up and ran as fast as he could "YESUNG!" Siwon thought of running after him but instead leaned on the wall with his hand on his face " even if I ran after him to tell him I'll walk him home because it's dangerous, he'll probably end up crying again….. how can I…get close to him without making him cry ..?"
"WHY!? Siwon likes me? It can't be, it can't be! From the guy with the same face as Him, I don’t want to hear such a thing …"
The next day….
Siwon walked to Yesung who was at his table " Yesung ….can I talk to you a bit…. ..About that student committee at lunch time and …" Siwon was cut when Yesung suddenly stood up before Siwon reach him and without looking at his eyes " I know! It's about the report of the meeting isn't it? I'll go to that alone, so just leave me alone!" then Yesung left the class, Siwon just stood there feeling a little angry. Yesung who was out leaning on the wall of the hallway to catch his breath " what should I do…? How can he talk to me as if nothing happened….after he did something like that" Yesung looked at his wrists which were marked" I still have the abrasions from when was holding my wrists so tightly, he have such a cruel power, very scary"
" BECAUSE I LOVE YOU"
"I can't believe that…"
Yesung reached the class he wanted and asked a student who was standing at the door " your on the student committee? Oh, then you need Heechul hold on" after a while a guy showed up " Hi there I'm Heechul, what have you come to report about the 10th anniversary? So what is first class going to do?" he said smiling and gave a wink " oh he's the type I can't stand.." Yesung thought trying not to look at him " we decided on palm reading" suddenly Heechul move close to him and grabbed his hand" Palm reading! I pride myself on palm reading too, let me read your palm" "NO" Yesung thought as he tried to free his hand but couldn't, then someone grabbed Heechul hand and moved it from Yesung " even thought you look really experienced when it come to guys…you can't tell when a guy doesn’t want to be touched?" Yesung opened his eyes and saw Siwon next to him "why?...why does he.." Yesung backed a few steps then ran from them "HEY" Siwon yelled and followed him " HEY! YESUNG WAIT" he grabbed Yesung hand and turned him to face him " no… no let me g.." "I'LL LET YOU GO, SO DON’T RUN AWAY" Yesung looked at him " I'm glad… at least you didn’t hit me this time…." Siwon said with a sigh "ENOUGH ALREADY! Why did you chase after me? Why were you there to begin with? I already told you I would go alone so leave me alone, were you trying to save me!? You are nothing but a nuisance! ….stop it already….stop bothering me…" Yesung covered his face and started to cry, Siwon looked at him and with a warm voice " then I'm gonna ask some thing too, when I see the guy I like in trouble I feel I have to save him… that kind of natural feeling… is that something you can't allow? Am I not allowed to feel that way?" a moment of silence passed by and then.. " I can't allow it…I hate you, I don’t want to see your face ever again! Don't come near me anymore!" Yesung screamed out wiping his tears " I see…. I understand" Siwon said softly, that made Yesung lift his head to look at Siwon who had his hand covering his eyes, and was shocked at the scene " I hurt Him..!" Yesung thought and started running " but it couldn’t be helped, I cant give him any encouragement, no matter what, no matter what, his face remind me of the other guy…."
When classes were over …..
At the committee meeting….
" at the actual event, group A will read palms and group B will show the customers through, so for now lets pair up and practice reading palm" Siwon said to everyone, all got a partner and started practicing, Siwon looked around to see who was left to practice with him, but the only one who was left was Yesung, Siwon approached his table and slowly sat in front of him " Sorry…. Even thought you said you don’t want to see my face anymore…" Siwon said not looking at Yesung and placed his palms on the table, Yesung looked at Siwon hands but then Siwon said " you don’t have to touch me… just pretend to …you don’t want to, right?" Siwon looked hurt and Yesung was wondering what he should do, " I hurt him, I hurt him …. I…I am scared of his hand, they are so big and rough…. But…" but then Yesung reached his small hands and held Siwon hand, the other lifted his head in surprise and looked at Yesung "I'll … to take a proper look, so …." Yesung said with shaky voice and looked at Siwon who had a very sweet smile on his face, at that moment Yesung though in his head "would that other guy smile like this too?" Siwon looked at Yesung with a soft look and " If your gonna do this then do it properly okay? since we don’t have a much time until the real thing" at that moment Siwon wanted to jump up from the happiness he felt and kept thinking as he was seeing Yesung hands " His fingers are trembling a little and his palms are a little sweaty, I wonder how much courage and determination it took for him to touch my hands, when I think about…" Siwon thoughts were cut when he noticed a wet drop on the table he lifted his head and noticed Yesung cheeks were wet from tears " Yesung..." Yesung lifted his hands and touched his cheeks he didn’t notice he was crying, Siwon placed his hands under his chin and looked at Yesung " you were like this from the start, How come?" Yesung looked at the table and he could feel his heart beat a little faster " I… I don’t want to talk about it….." " Why? I think I have the right to know"
"Yesung Be a good boy and be quite"
"I ….around the end of middle school …w….was…"
"STOP don’t tell anyone about this"
" Siwon … you… you look …"
"Stop don’t tell him"
" SIWON YOU LOOK EXACTLY LIKE THE GUY WHO RAPED ME…!"
Ding Dong…..
Yesung stood up quickly at the sound of the bell and looked at Siwon " I know that you have nothing to do with him….I know ….BUT I'm so scared!!" and then Yesung stormed from the class room, Siwon who was still under the shock " I … see.." Yesung word were still ringing in his head " around middle school ….I was raped" Siwon suddenly held the table and threw it away from him with anger " I want to kill…. That guy…..and myself back then" Siwon thought of what he did when he forced him self on Yesung
" I did the one thing I shouldn’t have ….I have no right to even talk to him"
To be continued
A/N : So what do you think, Does it look good, I was wondering if I made Yesung out of character, I don’t like making him look weak but I guess it's for the sake of the fic. Oh and let me now if you think it was short, I will try to make it longer.
Comments and suggestions are more that welcome ^ ^