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well its been so so long since i last updated. i finally got my computer to work ok. i deleted like a million viruses and shit like that. so yeah. i don't even think anyone reads this anyways but fuck it.
so i finally start school tommorow. finally, i didn't think i was ever going to get up off my ass and register. but i did. what sucks though is that i have to wake up fucking early to get to my first class. so i don't like that. but i had no other option. i gotta have mwf off so that i can work. i got payments to make.
i'm supposed to go get my parking permit right now. i'm just waiting for "the chink" to call me. i'm just playing sammy. then i gotta go to work. even though it's only like half a day. my dad was being all bitchy about it. he was like "you just wanna go get your permit and stay home all day. as soon as you get it, come to work, it doesn't matter what time it is." and i was like "did i say that!" and he just got quiet. so yeah i still need to decide on wether to go to work. i probably will.
so george finally left. i told the fucker to call me in the morning when he left but he didn't. i'll just call him later. george salinas going to the party capital of texas. i think thats how you spell capital. anyways. its crazy though. he was our sixth basketball player. now were down to 5. and in the fall we'll be down to maybe 4 or 3. who knows.
well my life seems a little tense right now. there's gonna be some things in the months to come that i don't know how i'm going to react to. i'm not sure how i feel right now but i hope things will clear up with time. hopefully IN time.
the dreams haven't stopped. those of you that know what i'm talking about. and its starting to freak me out.
"So Far Away"
I've been changin' but you'll never see me now
(I've been changin' but you'll never see me now)
Now I'm blaming you for everything
No more holding it in
How many years can I pretend
Nothing never goes the way it should
No more sitting in this place
Hoping you might see it my way
Cause I don't think you ever understood
That what I'm looking for are the answers
To why these questions never go away
[Chorus]
I'm so far away
I've been changin' but you'll never see me now
I'm so far away
Now I'm blaming you for everything
No more waiting for the end
Of every day that I will spend
Wishing that I only had a choice
No more pushing you away
Cause I will be busy watching things going my way
Never looking back on this anymore
Because what I'm looking for are the answers
To why these questions never go away
[Chorus]
I've been changin' but you'll never see me now
Now I'm blaming you for everything
I'm so far away
Hey hey watch me wave
Goodbye to yesterday
Nothing left in my way
Hey hey I've been saved
With sun shining on my pain
Getting me through this day
Hey hey watch me wave
Goodbye to yesterday
Nothing left in my way
Feels so good to say
[Chorus]
Now I'm blaming you
I'm so far away
so i finally start school tommorow. finally, i didn't think i was ever going to get up off my ass and register. but i did. what sucks though is that i have to wake up fucking early to get to my first class. so i don't like that. but i had no other option. i gotta have mwf off so that i can work. i got payments to make.
i'm supposed to go get my parking permit right now. i'm just waiting for "the chink" to call me. i'm just playing sammy. then i gotta go to work. even though it's only like half a day. my dad was being all bitchy about it. he was like "you just wanna go get your permit and stay home all day. as soon as you get it, come to work, it doesn't matter what time it is." and i was like "did i say that!" and he just got quiet. so yeah i still need to decide on wether to go to work. i probably will.
so george finally left. i told the fucker to call me in the morning when he left but he didn't. i'll just call him later. george salinas going to the party capital of texas. i think thats how you spell capital. anyways. its crazy though. he was our sixth basketball player. now were down to 5. and in the fall we'll be down to maybe 4 or 3. who knows.
well my life seems a little tense right now. there's gonna be some things in the months to come that i don't know how i'm going to react to. i'm not sure how i feel right now but i hope things will clear up with time. hopefully IN time.
the dreams haven't stopped. those of you that know what i'm talking about. and its starting to freak me out.
"So Far Away"
I've been changin' but you'll never see me now
(I've been changin' but you'll never see me now)
Now I'm blaming you for everything
No more holding it in
How many years can I pretend
Nothing never goes the way it should
No more sitting in this place
Hoping you might see it my way
Cause I don't think you ever understood
That what I'm looking for are the answers
To why these questions never go away
[Chorus]
I'm so far away
I've been changin' but you'll never see me now
I'm so far away
Now I'm blaming you for everything
No more waiting for the end
Of every day that I will spend
Wishing that I only had a choice
No more pushing you away
Cause I will be busy watching things going my way
Never looking back on this anymore
Because what I'm looking for are the answers
To why these questions never go away
[Chorus]
I've been changin' but you'll never see me now
Now I'm blaming you for everything
I'm so far away
Hey hey watch me wave
Goodbye to yesterday
Nothing left in my way
Hey hey I've been saved
With sun shining on my pain
Getting me through this day
Hey hey watch me wave
Goodbye to yesterday
Nothing left in my way
Feels so good to say
[Chorus]
Now I'm blaming you
I'm so far away