Until death do us part. And not even then. (One-Shot)
Genre: Angst
Pairings: Kyumin, Haehyuk
Rating: PG-15
Notes: Written in Eunhyuk's POV
Warnings: fail!plot, Chracter's death, hardcore angst
Summary: Life is so cruel. And sometimes, the death is the only solution, you might think.
Beta: jennypham7
I still remember that one day.
I remember that we had a concert, It was outdoor and free for anyone, something we often do from time to time, nothing really special. Everytime I think of it, that one certain image immediately comes to my mind.
Blood, so much blood.
And you in Kyuhyun's arms.
And then the screams, I hear them everytime I think of it, just as if I would be in the same situation again.
And I remember the pain in my elbow after Donghae pushed me down.
To save me from more shots.
He really cares about me, you know?
It was so sunny and it was still sunny when the day ended.
No clouds, no rain, actually a perfect day.
We planned on going to eat after the concert, just like everytime.
But there was something that prevented us from doing so.
And someone.
Anti-Fans can be so cruel.
So unbelievable cruel.
You were my best friend, you know?
And then... All the blood.
I was standing only half a meter away and I could hear every single word, even the whispers.
I could hear you and Kyuhyun and I wish I could forget the both of you but it still hunts me at night, in my dreams.
Sometimes, I even cry.
It wakes me up and I can feel Donghae's strong arms around me.
He feels so strong but I know he is crying too, even though I can't see his face.
But the voices keep hunting me in my dreams.
"Please..."
"NO, NO! YOU CAN NOT GO! YOU CAN'T! DID YOU HEAR THAT? YOU CAN'T! IF YOU GO NOW, I'LL, I'LL..." His voice faded.
I don't know why, I still don't know. Why did he stop shouting? It might have bring you back.
"Kyuhyun... It's okay. Everything is okay." And you were so calm.
So fucking calm, I wanted to smash your face.
Haha. I know that couldn't have done it anyway.
Your beautiful, perfect face.
Full of blood.
So fucking calm.
You weren't even crying, little bastard.
I can feel the tears coming again.
"NOTHING IS OKAY ! HYUNG! HYUNG! SUNGMIN HYUNG! LISTEN TO ME, THE EMERGENCY CAR IS COMING, HOLD ON! JUST WAIT!"
He knew that it was useless, anyway.
He had always been that smart.
Oh shit.
Why are those fucking tears still coming? It's so long ago.
So long already. But those last words... Shit.
"I love you.", you said.
And you pulled Kyuhyun for a kiss.
Your last kiss.
I know that that was the moment when I fainted.
Yes, I was fainting.
Any problem with it?
And Kyuhyun's voice went far far away.
But I could still hear it.
"HYUNG! HYUNG! HYUNG! WAKE UP! WAKE UP, WHAT THE FUCKING HELL, DON'T JOKE AROUND!"
We all knew that you weren't joking around and Kyuhyun's voice was getting husky but he didn't stop.
I think that I was passing out, but his voice keeps creeping back into my mind.
"Hyung... You said that you would never leave me. Why? I hate you. I hate you so fucking much. You lied to me."
The last whispers I could hear.
I think Kyuhyun fainted too.
The next days were hell.
Pure hell.
I didn't cry and called myself cruel.
Because everyone else was crying.
Everyone else except of Kyuhyun.
I was the one who went around and tried to comfort the others.
Only with the strokes on their back, I didn't dare to say anything but Kyuhyun was the only one who didn't want my comfort.
He actually just sat around and stared in the corner.
I think I saw his eyes glittering for once.
If the hell was worse, I would do anything to get into heaven.
Anything.
It was not only that I missed you.
I think I watched TV once.
She got caught. I think she is going to jail for a long time.
But it didn't bring you back.
How did you even dare to leave us?
Fucking bastard.
You fucking bastard.
We loved you so much and you left us.
Kyuhyun was so right to hate you.
Not even Zhou Mi, who would always have a smile on his face could speak one proper word in that week.
He was sobbing the whole time, anyway.
And here I am, I wasn't crying at all, I was just yelling and shouting at you in my head, maybe you would get furious and smack my head.
Or pulling off your martial arts skills.
Or just shouting back, cursing at me.
Calling me a little fucking motherfucker like you always did.
But nothing came.
I was so angry at you.
Kyuhyun was doing everything that he used to do then, eating, showering, playing Starcraft.
I was wondering why, was he okay with your death?
Didn't it mean anything to him?
Was the sorrow at the beginning jut an act?
I hated the silence at the dinner table.
I hated it that no one could say a word. Not even Donghae.
Everyone was too busy with crying.
Those stupid idiots.
Those fucking stupid idiots.
Yes, I know that I'm sobbing.
But Kyuhyun was never crying.
Never.
I hated Kyuhyun for not crying.
I hated him so much.
I hated everyone else for crying over you.
And I hated Kyuhyun because he wasn't crying at all.
Until that day.
I was sitting in my room, checking the news.
Everyone was supposed to cry over you.
I wanted everyone to cry for you.
But the news were just about that mad anti-fan who shot you.
I read a few blogs but no one was suffering enough.
I hated it.
What If you came back if you see how much everyone needed and loved you?
I know that I was funny.
Haha.
I'm almost laughing.
That one day, I didn't care if anyone was home.
Donghae was still sleeping.
I wish I could have slept too at that time.
The phone rang.
No one picked up.
It rang again.
I was picking up.
"Hello?"
I realised that my voice was gone. I hadn't talked for several weeks now.
I tried it again.
"Hello?"
"Here is the Seoul Hospital from section B. A certain Cho Kyuhyun had a car accident and this address was mentioned as his house address in his Personal Data. Please let someone come to him. His condition is stable but it's still important."
That fucking bastard.
-FLASHBACK- Kyuhyun POV-
I don't know how I got here...
I think my body just wanted to go out.
But why am I standing on the street?
I should move, it's dangerous and I could die.
Die...
I could die, just like...
You.
I still hate you.
So much.
But you know that I love you, right?
And you love me.
That's actually why I tried to be as usual.
The days you weren't at home because of some filmings, I tried to be like that.
I did it for you, you know.
But you know that I don't like it.
It hate it.
Just like I hate you.
And I can't do that anymore.
Not when I know that you are not there at the end of the day.
I want to make you happy because I love you.
But you are dead, right?
I think it's time to be selfish. -END OF FLASHBACK-
"It's okay, the doctor said there is a high possibility of him surviving the accident.", Leeteuk murmured.
He was standing on Kyuhyun's bed. Stop staring at Hyung like that, Kyu. You almost killed him by giving him a heart attack, I thought.
Kyuhyun scared everyone. Now he had to get well soon, I thought.
It's enough that you had to die.
I saw that he was actually not staring at Teukie Hyung.
Where was he looking at?
Was he actually listening to what we said, that stupid Maknae?
"Kyuhyun! You are not listening to me!", Leeteuk yelled but it was so weak.
I know that he hadn't any energy left to yell anymore.
"He is going to die anyway." Silence.
It was that sentence that no one wanted to say out loud.
The doctor had said that he would survive but all of us knew that he wouldn't.
Well, at least I thought that all of us knew.
Ryeowook began to cry and hit Kibum.
I think that everyone wanted to hit him.
And I think I was the first to go to Kyuhyun's bed.
I took his hand and bent forward to tell him something that was so important for me.
It was the most important thing for me in that moment.
And only for you.
"Tell him that we all love him so fucking much. And we hate him for going."
Kyu, he was just looking at me.
But he smiled.
Thank you.
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It was a sunny day. We were there again.
On that graveyard. I looked at your grave.
And Kyuhyun's.
I felt a smile coming on my face. A few weeks ago, I would have hated me for smiling on a funeral.
But not on that day.
Donghae stood next to me and was crying.
So hard.
I felt my heart aching.
I don't like him crying.
Donghae looked at me with you swollen eyes.
Did I ever tell him that they are always beautiful?
"Why are you so heartless, Hyukkie? You didn't even cry for once since that day."
Donghae's words were hurting me.
I didn't want him to see me as a heartless asshole.
If he just knew that I cried every night, alone in my bed, as silent as possible.
But not on that day.
I smiled at him, weakly, because he just didn't get it.
"Why would I cry? They aren't crying as well."
And I still hate you.
A/N: I know I suck at Angst. But that one plot had been stuck in my head since I don't know when, so I had to write it down >.< I cried while writing it but everything I cried about was actually only in my head and I didn't write it LOL
Pairings: Kyumin, Haehyuk
Rating: PG-15
Notes: Written in Eunhyuk's POV
Warnings: fail!plot, Chracter's death, hardcore angst
Summary: Life is so cruel. And sometimes, the death is the only solution, you might think.
Beta: jennypham7
I still remember that one day.
I remember that we had a concert, It was outdoor and free for anyone, something we often do from time to time, nothing really special. Everytime I think of it, that one certain image immediately comes to my mind.
Blood, so much blood.
And you in Kyuhyun's arms.
And then the screams, I hear them everytime I think of it, just as if I would be in the same situation again.
And I remember the pain in my elbow after Donghae pushed me down.
To save me from more shots.
He really cares about me, you know?
It was so sunny and it was still sunny when the day ended.
No clouds, no rain, actually a perfect day.
We planned on going to eat after the concert, just like everytime.
But there was something that prevented us from doing so.
And someone.
Anti-Fans can be so cruel.
So unbelievable cruel.
You were my best friend, you know?
And then... All the blood.
I was standing only half a meter away and I could hear every single word, even the whispers.
I could hear you and Kyuhyun and I wish I could forget the both of you but it still hunts me at night, in my dreams.
Sometimes, I even cry.
It wakes me up and I can feel Donghae's strong arms around me.
He feels so strong but I know he is crying too, even though I can't see his face.
But the voices keep hunting me in my dreams.
"Please..."
"NO, NO! YOU CAN NOT GO! YOU CAN'T! DID YOU HEAR THAT? YOU CAN'T! IF YOU GO NOW, I'LL, I'LL..." His voice faded.
I don't know why, I still don't know. Why did he stop shouting? It might have bring you back.
"Kyuhyun... It's okay. Everything is okay." And you were so calm.
So fucking calm, I wanted to smash your face.
Haha. I know that couldn't have done it anyway.
Your beautiful, perfect face.
Full of blood.
So fucking calm.
You weren't even crying, little bastard.
I can feel the tears coming again.
"NOTHING IS OKAY ! HYUNG! HYUNG! SUNGMIN HYUNG! LISTEN TO ME, THE EMERGENCY CAR IS COMING, HOLD ON! JUST WAIT!"
He knew that it was useless, anyway.
He had always been that smart.
Oh shit.
Why are those fucking tears still coming? It's so long ago.
So long already. But those last words... Shit.
"I love you.", you said.
And you pulled Kyuhyun for a kiss.
Your last kiss.
I know that that was the moment when I fainted.
Yes, I was fainting.
Any problem with it?
And Kyuhyun's voice went far far away.
But I could still hear it.
"HYUNG! HYUNG! HYUNG! WAKE UP! WAKE UP, WHAT THE FUCKING HELL, DON'T JOKE AROUND!"
We all knew that you weren't joking around and Kyuhyun's voice was getting husky but he didn't stop.
I think that I was passing out, but his voice keeps creeping back into my mind.
"Hyung... You said that you would never leave me. Why? I hate you. I hate you so fucking much. You lied to me."
The last whispers I could hear.
I think Kyuhyun fainted too.
The next days were hell.
Pure hell.
I didn't cry and called myself cruel.
Because everyone else was crying.
Everyone else except of Kyuhyun.
I was the one who went around and tried to comfort the others.
Only with the strokes on their back, I didn't dare to say anything but Kyuhyun was the only one who didn't want my comfort.
He actually just sat around and stared in the corner.
I think I saw his eyes glittering for once.
If the hell was worse, I would do anything to get into heaven.
Anything.
It was not only that I missed you.
I think I watched TV once.
She got caught. I think she is going to jail for a long time.
But it didn't bring you back.
How did you even dare to leave us?
Fucking bastard.
You fucking bastard.
We loved you so much and you left us.
Kyuhyun was so right to hate you.
Not even Zhou Mi, who would always have a smile on his face could speak one proper word in that week.
He was sobbing the whole time, anyway.
And here I am, I wasn't crying at all, I was just yelling and shouting at you in my head, maybe you would get furious and smack my head.
Or pulling off your martial arts skills.
Or just shouting back, cursing at me.
Calling me a little fucking motherfucker like you always did.
But nothing came.
I was so angry at you.
Kyuhyun was doing everything that he used to do then, eating, showering, playing Starcraft.
I was wondering why, was he okay with your death?
Didn't it mean anything to him?
Was the sorrow at the beginning jut an act?
I hated the silence at the dinner table.
I hated it that no one could say a word. Not even Donghae.
Everyone was too busy with crying.
Those stupid idiots.
Those fucking stupid idiots.
Yes, I know that I'm sobbing.
But Kyuhyun was never crying.
Never.
I hated Kyuhyun for not crying.
I hated him so much.
I hated everyone else for crying over you.
And I hated Kyuhyun because he wasn't crying at all.
Until that day.
I was sitting in my room, checking the news.
Everyone was supposed to cry over you.
I wanted everyone to cry for you.
But the news were just about that mad anti-fan who shot you.
I read a few blogs but no one was suffering enough.
I hated it.
What If you came back if you see how much everyone needed and loved you?
I know that I was funny.
Haha.
I'm almost laughing.
That one day, I didn't care if anyone was home.
Donghae was still sleeping.
I wish I could have slept too at that time.
The phone rang.
No one picked up.
It rang again.
I was picking up.
"Hello?"
I realised that my voice was gone. I hadn't talked for several weeks now.
I tried it again.
"Hello?"
"Here is the Seoul Hospital from section B. A certain Cho Kyuhyun had a car accident and this address was mentioned as his house address in his Personal Data. Please let someone come to him. His condition is stable but it's still important."
That fucking bastard.
-FLASHBACK- Kyuhyun POV-
I don't know how I got here...
I think my body just wanted to go out.
But why am I standing on the street?
I should move, it's dangerous and I could die.
Die...
I could die, just like...
You.
I still hate you.
So much.
But you know that I love you, right?
And you love me.
That's actually why I tried to be as usual.
The days you weren't at home because of some filmings, I tried to be like that.
I did it for you, you know.
But you know that I don't like it.
It hate it.
Just like I hate you.
And I can't do that anymore.
Not when I know that you are not there at the end of the day.
I want to make you happy because I love you.
But you are dead, right?
I think it's time to be selfish. -END OF FLASHBACK-
"It's okay, the doctor said there is a high possibility of him surviving the accident.", Leeteuk murmured.
He was standing on Kyuhyun's bed. Stop staring at Hyung like that, Kyu. You almost killed him by giving him a heart attack, I thought.
Kyuhyun scared everyone. Now he had to get well soon, I thought.
It's enough that you had to die.
I saw that he was actually not staring at Teukie Hyung.
Where was he looking at?
Was he actually listening to what we said, that stupid Maknae?
"Kyuhyun! You are not listening to me!", Leeteuk yelled but it was so weak.
I know that he hadn't any energy left to yell anymore.
"He is going to die anyway." Silence.
It was that sentence that no one wanted to say out loud.
The doctor had said that he would survive but all of us knew that he wouldn't.
Well, at least I thought that all of us knew.
Ryeowook began to cry and hit Kibum.
I think that everyone wanted to hit him.
And I think I was the first to go to Kyuhyun's bed.
I took his hand and bent forward to tell him something that was so important for me.
It was the most important thing for me in that moment.
And only for you.
"Tell him that we all love him so fucking much. And we hate him for going."
Kyu, he was just looking at me.
But he smiled.
Thank you.
-----------------------------
It was a sunny day. We were there again.
On that graveyard. I looked at your grave.
And Kyuhyun's.
I felt a smile coming on my face. A few weeks ago, I would have hated me for smiling on a funeral.
But not on that day.
Donghae stood next to me and was crying.
So hard.
I felt my heart aching.
I don't like him crying.
Donghae looked at me with you swollen eyes.
Did I ever tell him that they are always beautiful?
"Why are you so heartless, Hyukkie? You didn't even cry for once since that day."
Donghae's words were hurting me.
I didn't want him to see me as a heartless asshole.
If he just knew that I cried every night, alone in my bed, as silent as possible.
But not on that day.
I smiled at him, weakly, because he just didn't get it.
"Why would I cry? They aren't crying as well."
And I still hate you.
A/N: I know I suck at Angst. But that one plot had been stuck in my head since I don't know when, so I had to write it down >.< I cried while writing it but everything I cried about was actually only in my head and I didn't write it LOL