It wasn't supposed to happen like this.
Why does everything in my life have to be so difficult?
Why can't it ever be simple or have a solution?
My patience is wearing thin.
The scar across my breast, X Marks the Spot, constantly reminds me how much this needs to end.
I never want to see my face painted black and blue like that again.
I never want to see my husband cover my child's mouth when he starts crying.
For once I want to be able to fucking smile because I mean it.
I don't remember the last time I wasn't walking on eggshells.
I used to be so strong, a fucking beast.
I used to have control over my life.
Now I'm meek, weak, and timid. Afraid of my own fucking shadow.
My life was not meant to be like this.
I do not want to end up like my mother.
I don't want to go through this for the next 22 years of my life.
I'm better than that.
Alex deserves better than that.
He is my everything. He deserves to be treated as so.
Fuck what everyone else thinks.
Fuck what society thinks.
I'm done.
I can't do this anymore.
Why can't it ever be simple or have a solution?
My patience is wearing thin.
The scar across my breast, X Marks the Spot, constantly reminds me how much this needs to end.
I never want to see my face painted black and blue like that again.
I never want to see my husband cover my child's mouth when he starts crying.
For once I want to be able to fucking smile because I mean it.
I don't remember the last time I wasn't walking on eggshells.
I used to be so strong, a fucking beast.
I used to have control over my life.
Now I'm meek, weak, and timid. Afraid of my own fucking shadow.
My life was not meant to be like this.
I do not want to end up like my mother.
I don't want to go through this for the next 22 years of my life.
I'm better than that.
Alex deserves better than that.
He is my everything. He deserves to be treated as so.
Fuck what everyone else thinks.
Fuck what society thinks.
I'm done.
I can't do this anymore.