Insecure thingy
It's so long since I have that kind of thought again. So insecure... Well, it's time to reconsider things and live a real life. Actually we have never had a proper competitive relationship, and the ways we choose are different, but still, you win this time. Maybe I can't be open as your best friend anymore, because of all my thoughts and feelings. Really, it's really sad, when we shared the same beginning and end up with different position, with you're at the top and I am at the bottom... Jealousy isn't something nice, and insecurity is, too. But guess that I can't get rid of them as long as we're still friends. You're a good buddy, I know, but I am not. I will still feel happy for your success, but I will also feel hopeless and disappointed with myself. So useless I am now...
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