Nov 22, 2009 22:10
I just found out my Aunt C. finally passed away from cancer. F*ck. She was only in her 50's. I'm going to miss her so much. She was a huge influence in my life. The family has known for several months now to be ready. But f*ck, really Thanksgiving week? I really hate holidays. Bad things, life changing, bad things always happen on the holidays for me. I I don't even know what to say. I miss her, I missed her when she was still alive and so doped up on morphine she was a comatose skeleton of her former self. I hope she is in heaven. She deserves it.
Do you want to know why she died? Because she loved life, but didn't like exercising or eating healthy. This sweet wonderful women was overweight. Obese. She developed diabetes. She also developed kidney cancer from being fat. Did you know you can get cancer from being obese? I didn't. Not until this year. The doctors removed the tumor and her kidney. But the cancer had spread to her lungs and some joints. They tried aggressive treatment for several months without any improvement. My aunt was so wiped out from the aggressive treatments, she decided to just do hospice care. She was having nurses come to her home the couple months to help take care of her.
God, I can just envision her in her coffin. The slack skin of her once plump cheeks hanging off her cheekbones drooping towards her ears. I went to see her last month. She was so tiny. so frail. not the robust, cheery woman I loved visiting with. f*ck